MERRY FREAKIN CHRISTMAS
This has to be the most depressed i've ever been on christmas. It's christmas eve and I don't feel the slightest bit of happiness. I hate this shit, I wish I could actually feel something. All I can think about is christmas time last year, I was with my family for one of the last times. I was getting ready to leave for the Airforce in a week, and all of my friends and family were here to say goodbye. It was supposed to be one of the last times I'd be spending christmas with my family for probably a long while, and I finally accepted it and let myself move on with my life. Now I'm back here once again and it feels like i've only regressed since that time, and I have nothing to show for the last year but messed up legs and a broken heart. Great year, huh... and everytime I go out, I of course have to run into someone I used to know, and they always ask the same freakin questions, which really pisses me off because I don't want to talk about that shit, especially with someone that I never talk to anyways. Me and my girlfriend broke up, so once again, I'm alone for christmas. I'm just frustrated right now I guess... I just feel like hitting someone, but finding someone to be with me this christmas would be much better. somebody please call me and chear me up. MERRY FREAKING CHRISTMAS!!