words in the thoughts of mine
struck without reason. why am i so scared? afraid of my most important responsibility to myself. i dont want to fuck up. is it that every action today inflicts upon tomarow. my life isnt fucked yet. what will turn me around? what should i be focused on? right now, life is sudle. just living day-to-day not worrieing untill now. school will start soon and with it the "new me". the "me" that i have created for myself for when the time comes (time,..huh?) and when it does, i expect if the mask never slips i will become it. my mask is made up of everything i want to be, so why does becoming what i want seem so unrealistic? am i so afraid that i might let myself down?,..again? its not hard. dreams just dont come true without working for them. i have my dream, but getting there seems a task unmanagable. i will do my best, though even that cant be enough. i have been so many times in my life influenced without awarness. other pple should not matter to me (not in the way i take to heart) in my front they dont but hack to the core and prove me the oposite. i know. i need a plege of sucsess.