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so nic is suposse to come over tonight/this morring when he gets off work..but well see if he does. i cant sleep at all. and im kinda up set..but i wont say why cuz really its really fuckin stupid its a stupid reason to be up set ok im more jealous then up set...but its still stupid. wow......im sitting woundering what i am doing..oh yeah and amanda and i, i dont we are going to be friends anymore....i honistly want to sit down and talk to her but really i know its not going to do any good...but most of all i just keep thinking about what she said to me that was un called for and if she doesnt mean it well thats just to fuckin bad...what i said to her was at least the truth about ryan and how i have been feeling...and honistly if she did mean it well then i really know i cant trust her and i know she talks shit about me..but u know whatever i dont care anymore im just being my self and doing what 19 year olds do...so fuck her..so yeah on with my life ummmmmmmm yeah really nothing...tomorrow is jungle bell bash and im sooo happy i cant wait....and yeah i dont know im getting sleepy though so i think im going to head off to bed and then if nic comes over then he can wake me up...hahahhahahaha if u know what i mean lol jk..still a VERGIN.... well anyways good night all..talk to u later....