it's a nice round number at least
Still on track on day three. I got 888 words out before work. That was basically the only good thing that managed to happen today, though.
I've been kind of having a meltdown for the past few days, the kind where I can't do much besides watch it happen and hope I can loosely control the fallout, since I can't stop it. I've spent a lot of time crying, it's awesome.
The best hour for me, weirdly, continues to be that first hour when I'm awake and writing and not thinking about anything else. Which is weird, but good. The second guessing usually starts as soon as I get to work, but I'm glad I generally manage to stave it off while I'm actually working.
So that's where we are today. I like checking in so I can track my progress, but there's not much else to say today. The more I write on this, the more certain I am that it's worthless as anything other than words on the page. I don't know that it will ever see the light of day. But it remains...something. Which is about as good as I can ask for right now, so I'm going to cling to that.
I don't know when I got so bad at this.
I've been kind of having a meltdown for the past few days, the kind where I can't do much besides watch it happen and hope I can loosely control the fallout, since I can't stop it. I've spent a lot of time crying, it's awesome.
The best hour for me, weirdly, continues to be that first hour when I'm awake and writing and not thinking about anything else. Which is weird, but good. The second guessing usually starts as soon as I get to work, but I'm glad I generally manage to stave it off while I'm actually working.
So that's where we are today. I like checking in so I can track my progress, but there's not much else to say today. The more I write on this, the more certain I am that it's worthless as anything other than words on the page. I don't know that it will ever see the light of day. But it remains...something. Which is about as good as I can ask for right now, so I'm going to cling to that.
I don't know when I got so bad at this.