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Maybe its BETTER to not truly know a person; not to be able to look at a person and see their COPE as plainly as that heart on the surgeon's table. To be INNOCENT; to not know everything about that person; To only have FRAGMENTS of her through SNIPS of conversations; To only have pieces of his BRILLIANCE through awed words of mouth. This way, you have the framework of this perfect person; the skeleton, and now you can fill her up with your imagination.
You have a convo with an old school friend that you haven't seen in seven years. You leave impressed at her affability and then find out that WHOA she's smart (1600 baby) she's pretty and has this way of words that makes you hot with envy as you frolick in her snazzy alliteration of blends of words which she has her own name for. But, you only meet once in a while so you don't get to truly know the person. So you dream. You fantasize, you draw up this perfect character. She has the physical perfection of those disney characters - Beauty/Cinderella/Kiera Knightley- along with the intellectual deepness of the classic literary characters. you don't know if she plays sports but WOW, if she does then boy oh boy is she PERFECT. So now, yes - she does play sports. This continues for a long period of time until finally, you're more snagged into your imaginary image of her than who she actually is.
You have a role model. He's god to you. You've looked up to him since 3rd grade and have tried to emulate his every move. You try to take the same classes, same extra curriculars, do whatever he did and is doing. He plays tennis? then BAM you play tennis. he went to winterformal? fine! you have to go. This gets to the point that you're jealous of his prom date or you wish his prom date was yours. You imagine him to be this shining hero - greatest soldier standing on the top of a hill with the sun rising behind him. WOW. Your dream girl and role model are created. You are given the bones of information; your mind creates the flesh. Of course they're not as great as you make them out to be, but why should you think differently? When you truly get to know these people, wouldn't you feel disappointment that they aren't as good as you hoped? maybe sometimes its better to imagine.
got this quote from my imagined girl's site; thought it was funny for all the prospective ivey/private college peoples. "And then there are the times where I can't get over how unbelievably sexy it is to be sitting in a classroom with windows high up on the walls that invoke the ambience of a sub-terrain prison cell, with academic snobs who subject you to endless pompous rhetoric then force you to buy their books, while all around you the gorgeous creme de la intellectual creme are armed with loads of pens and notebooks as a way of camouflaging the droopy eyelids and trails of drool because they are paying 40 grand a year to slumber sexy."
some people just write so freakin well. grrrr im jealous