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i really don't know what i'm gonna do. i'm tired of hurting. i'm tired of not being able to do anything. how the fuck does she just invite herslef in my house. it's really getting on my last nerve. i'm trying to be nice at this point and just leave the room when she comes around. that way he doesn't fell like i'm disrespecting her by being short with her. it's so much easier to just not say a goddamn thing at all. i'm doing good right now. we're in the same room and i'm not getting teary-eyed. i want to. God i want to. but that won't make anything easier on him. every once in a while lately, for a split second i wonder if i should bother making anything easier for him at all. right now i just don't give a flying fuck. and i bet she's taking him to work today now too. i was supposed to. she doesn't want him, i do, but watch me get pushed right out of the way. i see that coming really soon. whenever she comes around i don't mean shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!