stop beating

[po_niglet]

IF THIS HEART WOULD CEASE TO BEAT
MAYBE I'D KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO WIN
IF THIS HEART WOULD CEASE TO BEAT
I'D NEVER KNOW THIS PAIN AGAIN
IF THIS HEART WOULD CEASE TO BEAT
IT WOULDN'T HURT NEARLY AS BAD
IF MY HEART WOULD JUST STOP BEATING
I'D BE CONTENT
SO MANY OTHERS GLAD

MY CHEST WOULDN'T FEEL LIKE IT'S GONNA CAVE IN
IN THE PIT OF MY STOMACH I KNOW THAT
ONCE AGAIN, AGAINST MY WILL,
GODDAMMIT I'VE GIVEN IN
EMOTION, LOVE AND COMPASSION SHOULD NOT EXIST
MY HEART WILL FOREVER BREAK
WITH EVERY TOUCH
WITH EVERY WORD
WITH EVERY KISS
WHENEVER WE FUCK

HOW DOES ONE IMAGINE THE LIFE THEY SHOULD'VE HAD
WITHOUT SHEDDING A TEAR
WITHOUT YOUR HOPES CRASHING
WITHOUT LOSING YOUR GRIP
WATCHING SOMEONE STEAL FROM YOU
AND RESISTING THE URGE TO BASH THEIR FUCKING HEAD IN?

HOW DO YOU MAKE YOUR HEART STOP THE BEATING?
HOW DO YOU MAKE YOUR VEINS STOP THE BLEEDING?
HOW DO YOU MAKE YOUR EYES STOP THEIR LEAKING?
HOW DO YOU MAKE YOUR BRAIN JUST STOP THINKING?

I JUST NEED TO STOP THINKING
I JUST NEED TO STOP THE FEELING
I JUST NEED TO STOP BELIEVING
AND MAYBE ONE OF THESE TIMES
WHEN MY HEART STARTS TO ACHE
AND I BEGIN TO CRY
I'LL GROW THE BALLS TO SEVER THESE VEINS
AND BLEED FOR THE VERY LAST TIME