Goodbye My Lover ( Read more... )

After today I have realized how love works. If I'm a jerk to the guy I really like he will fall head over heels. WHY!!!!????? It's like forcing me to be fake. Pretend you don't want him. "Play the game FeLisha" Screw "the game." I want to be real. Be able to say, this is how I feel and be accepted for that not how I well I hide how I feel. It is ( Read more... )

In the words of Keith Urban, this is gonna hurt bad before it gets better.

It's like a bad cycle. This never ending circle of trying too hard, giving too much, and losing it all. I have come to beleive that I suck at life. I hate school. I'm not smart. I am miserably failing at my social life. Since when am I quiet? Since I realized that noone at school remotely gives a crap about my life and hates to hear about it. Now I ( Read more... )

Why can't I just pretend to hate everyone like I used to. But after all the stupid crap I have said to everyone how can I even start a regualr conversation now? Like "Hey how are you? It's me the cold heartless bitch that spread vicious rumors about you for kicks. " I'm not seeing a good reaction from that one. Maybe if I add a cute smile it will ( Read more... )

MY yard looks like crap my mom looks worse. Another Selena/Bobby fight for records. And Kyle was there for the whole thing. Now one person understands the stress I'm under. I wanna shoot myself in the face.

I'm sick of being sick. I miss people... Kyle is coming to see me tomorrow before he goes to work then me and Emily are going to eat chinese food for her birthday. David got Erin arby's so I'm getting Emily chinese... Did you ever wonder what brought you to this very moment. Like if I hadn't taken a job at waffle house I wouldn't be sitting here ( Read more... )

So Kyle is working 2 12 hour shifts this weekend. That's 24 hours in 2 days. There are 48 hours in 2 days and he is working for half of them. I know we both have to work but I miss him. It sucks going form Christams break where we spent everyday together to now when we see eachother for 8 hours a week. Absence makes the heart grow fonder but, this ( Read more... )

Do not beocme a senior. With 5 months to go... I just don't care anymore. LoL

Not very interesting huh?