Grown Up
What I have realized is that I'm all grown up. It was a funny realization that I made on Monday night, after school. I was walking with my head held high after I thought about it. Although, I found it a funny thing to think about.
I left my Psych course and was walking to my car, and just thought: " I worked today 8 hrs, then I went home and did some things around the apartment, and then got in the car, and came to class, and now I'm walking back to the car that I can drive. I'm an adult." This gave me a renewed idea of self.
I kept wondering what exactly triggered me to think about this, or make this realization, because what I was thinking about wasn't really significant. But it made me feel different, changed, grown up.
Ever since then I've had a new sense of self, of who I am. It's weird, but I'm a grown up, I'm a woman. I'm not a child, not a teenager, but an adult. Everything I thought of when I was younger about being an adult, being grown up isn't how it has played out, but a new and improved ideal of what a person is when they are a "grown up." Funny, how when you are a child you think of a grown up as your parents, and what they represent. But it is completely different.
It was a unique and completely off center thought process, but one that I needed to make. It made me feel better, and more of a person than I had in the last little while. It was important for me to redefine myself.
I left my Psych course and was walking to my car, and just thought: " I worked today 8 hrs, then I went home and did some things around the apartment, and then got in the car, and came to class, and now I'm walking back to the car that I can drive. I'm an adult." This gave me a renewed idea of self.
I kept wondering what exactly triggered me to think about this, or make this realization, because what I was thinking about wasn't really significant. But it made me feel different, changed, grown up.
Ever since then I've had a new sense of self, of who I am. It's weird, but I'm a grown up, I'm a woman. I'm not a child, not a teenager, but an adult. Everything I thought of when I was younger about being an adult, being grown up isn't how it has played out, but a new and improved ideal of what a person is when they are a "grown up." Funny, how when you are a child you think of a grown up as your parents, and what they represent. But it is completely different.
It was a unique and completely off center thought process, but one that I needed to make. It made me feel better, and more of a person than I had in the last little while. It was important for me to redefine myself.