making an ass of yourself for fun and profit

[plural]

dinner last night
was incredible

If I wasn't already pretty sure I was in trouble
last night convinced me

she tried to convince me to go to turkey with her next week
which in my mind appears like more of a come on
that I got the feeling she was thinking it was

unfortunately it simply isn't a option on such short notice
as I have to get permission from the government to leave the country
and while I haven't a clue how that process works
I doubt I could make it work that quickly.

she is going out clubbing with me and my crew tonight
if the right moment arrives
I'm thinking of laying it out on the line
not a perfect moment mind you
just need one where we've established a connection
so it isn't coming entirely out of left field

I saw her briefly this morning
damn she turns me on
but the encounter
reminded me that I'm up against long odds

apparently her boyfriend
set up a webcam
so she could watch
her doggie in the states
and she was cooing

it made me feel like cackling

I'll get you my pretty, and your little dog too...

honestly
I've generally found that wooing a woman is easy
even with competition from another man
but a puppy
that requires world series of poker level game

but fuck it
I'll bring my A game
if it works awesome
if it falls on its face
so be it
at least I put it out there

as the great and wise budhaboy is fond of saying

don't let nothing but fear stop you.

and to me
not even that will suffice.

I'm going to roll the dice
that the odds aren't in my favor
just makes it all the more exciting

or
to put it in poker terms

darling
fuck the cards, fuck the odds

I'm all-in blind

because the juice is worth the squeeze