Oops I did it again...

[plural]

I think that I've been the victim of a most gruesome and personal violation

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I meet lots of attractive women
90% of them
despite their allure
do not interest me

sure, I'll dally, I'll dip, I'll taste
but really
I'm not interested.

About once a year
I meet a woman who intrigues me
more often than not
it doesn't last
a momentary fancy
a passing infatuation
something entirely unsustainable

once a decade
however
I meet a woman who compels me
and
of the two prior
I was engaged to one
and dated another for almost five year

so
this isn't a passing fancy
isn't a ship passing in the dark

as for her faltering
in any way or regard
it really doesn't matter
as
my attraction isn't based on some silly idea of perfection
she is a flawed woman
as I am a flawed man
actually no, that isn't fair, I'm a far more flawed man
but
that really isn't the point

I don't adore her for being perfect
I don't adore her for her potential
I adore her for her faults
I adore her for her gifts
I adore her for the balance of who she is

right or wrong
good or bad
for evil or good
she simply takes my breathe away.

I can't hold others to reasonable account
for if they held me to a similar standard
I could never pass.
I may wish to be otherwise
but the truth is I am brute
a man with a past and an unpleasant one at that
it is only grace which sustains me here
and only grace is my release.

you are absolutely correct
it may be this woman
it may be the next
and it definitely isn't
all those others I mentioned
but
damn the torpedoes
I'm going full speed ahead...

and
I'll be 35 at the end of next month.
and while you didn't ask
she is 28.

[notodette]

I didn't ask about her because I don't care about age differences (clearly). I just wanted to know how much life experience you've had, or rather, how much time you've had on this earth in which to have those experiences.