of all the delightful people here it is you I hoped to hear from more than any other
as it is my fondest wish that you are correct
there is nothing I desire more than for such decision in your mind
if she was the one much would be settled in my mind
as much as I enjoy being the rogue being that guy I want desperately to be someone else to be that guy the one who has her the one who marries her
I enjoy my life but I see it's faults but I see where true merit lies
this girl unlike the dozens before and likely the dozens after her
inspires me
when I see her it isn't so much that I want commitment as much as I was family
when I look at her I see children grandchildren
a legacy
perhaps that is selfish perhaps that is unkind but while some women might make me want to be a better man she inspires in me the creation of a legacy
I went out this evening with a few of mt guy friends and I shared with them my current dilemma
and to be honest they didnt get it
I look at her and I don't see children I see grandchildren I see great-grandchildren
it isn't that she is the woman I want now not that I do know want her now it is that she is the woman I want forty years from now
right now I'd love to have her in my arms I'd love to hear her moan cry scream and I would feel gratified with such but looking at her now what I really want isnt that isn't now
what really turns me on is the image of her as the matriarch raising with me our grandchildren teaching them to carry on the values and traditions of our family
perhaps that is asking too much perhaps that is seeking too much but quite frankly even if I am wrong
You'll see that it's sustainable when it becomes so. When those thoughts of future generations do not fade. When she falters, does something to ruin the mystique, uses an immature word, a crass phrase, and yet you find yourself forgiving her, and, as for her part, she stays the course, right back to the person you are wishing her to be, just blips of imperfection here and there, like butterflies, never settling anywhere, least of all the pit of your stomach. You will see a woman for who you want her to be, while seeing at the same time who she is, and you will see it all in the future tense as is already happening.
It might be this woman, it might be the next one. But it is certainly not the blondes, brunettes, and redheads you mentioned at the beginning of your post.
(Do you mind if I ask you how old you are, btw? I hope I haven't already asked this, but I may have.)
I meet lots of attractive women 90% of them despite their allure do not interest me
sure, I'll dally, I'll dip, I'll taste but really I'm not interested.
About once a year I meet a woman who intrigues me more often than not it doesn't last a momentary fancy a passing infatuation something entirely unsustainable
once a decade however I meet a woman who compels me and of the two prior I was engaged to one and dated another for almost five year
so this isn't a passing fancy isn't a ship passing in the dark
as for her faltering in any way or regard it really doesn't matter as my attraction isn't based on some silly idea of perfection she is a flawed woman as I am a flawed man actually no, that isn't fair, I'm a far more flawed man but that really isn't the point
I don't adore her for being perfect I don't adore her for her potential I adore her for her faults I adore her for her gifts I adore her for the balance of who she is
right or wrong good or bad for evil or good she simply takes my breathe away.
I can't hold others to reasonable account for if they held me to a similar standard I could never pass. I may wish to be otherwise but the truth is I am brute a man with a past and an unpleasant one at that it is only grace which sustains me here and only grace is my release.
you are absolutely correct it may be this woman it may be the next and it definitely isn't all those others I mentioned but damn the torpedoes I'm going full speed ahead...
and I'll be 35 at the end of next month. and while you didn't ask she is 28.
I didn't ask about her because I don't care about age differences (clearly). I just wanted to know how much life experience you've had, or rather, how much time you've had on this earth in which to have those experiences.
it is you I hoped to hear from
more than any other
as
it is my fondest wish
that you are correct
there is nothing
I desire more
than for such decision
in your mind
if she
was the one
much would be settled in my mind
as much as I enjoy
being the rogue
being that guy
I want
desperately
to be someone else
to be
that guy
the one who has her
the one who marries her
I enjoy my life
but I see it's faults
but I see where true merit lies
this girl
unlike the dozens before
and likely
the dozens after her
inspires me
when I see her
it isn't so much that I want commitment
as much
as I was family
when I look at her
I see children
grandchildren
a legacy
perhaps that is selfish
perhaps that is unkind
but
while some women
might make me want
to be a better man
she inspires in me
the creation of a legacy
I went out this evening
with a few of mt guy friends
and
I shared with them
my current dilemma
and to be honest
they didnt get it
I look at her
and I don't see children
I see grandchildren
I see great-grandchildren
it isn't
that she is the woman I want now
not that I do know want her now
it is that she is the woman
I want forty years from now
right now
I'd love to have her in my arms
I'd love to hear her moan
cry
scream
and
I would feel gratified
with such
but
looking at her now
what I really want
isnt that
isn't now
what really turns me on
is the image of her as the matriarch
raising with me
our grandchildren
teaching them
to carry on the values and traditions
of our family
perhaps
that is asking too much
perhaps that is
seeking too much
but
quite frankly
even if I am wrong
the juice seems worth the squeeze
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It might be this woman, it might be the next one. But it is certainly not the blondes, brunettes, and redheads you mentioned at the beginning of your post.
(Do you mind if I ask you how old you are, btw? I hope I haven't already asked this, but I may have.)
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90% of them
despite their allure
do not interest me
sure, I'll dally, I'll dip, I'll taste
but really
I'm not interested.
About once a year
I meet a woman who intrigues me
more often than not
it doesn't last
a momentary fancy
a passing infatuation
something entirely unsustainable
once a decade
however
I meet a woman who compels me
and
of the two prior
I was engaged to one
and dated another for almost five year
so
this isn't a passing fancy
isn't a ship passing in the dark
as for her faltering
in any way or regard
it really doesn't matter
as
my attraction isn't based on some silly idea of perfection
she is a flawed woman
as I am a flawed man
actually no, that isn't fair, I'm a far more flawed man
but
that really isn't the point
I don't adore her for being perfect
I don't adore her for her potential
I adore her for her faults
I adore her for her gifts
I adore her for the balance of who she is
right or wrong
good or bad
for evil or good
she simply takes my breathe away.
I can't hold others to reasonable account
for if they held me to a similar standard
I could never pass.
I may wish to be otherwise
but the truth is I am brute
a man with a past and an unpleasant one at that
it is only grace which sustains me here
and only grace is my release.
you are absolutely correct
it may be this woman
it may be the next
and it definitely isn't
all those others I mentioned
but
damn the torpedoes
I'm going full speed ahead...
and
I'll be 35 at the end of next month.
and while you didn't ask
she is 28.
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