While I'm flattered I'd love your perspective on what the hell I should do.
Really it all distills down to the lip gloss for me. Everything else, while flirtatious and with a definite spark could be rationalized away to being friendly and having fun.
But hippy girls from Oregon, rarely if ever wear makeup and they surely don't make a point of putting it on for a spur of the moment dinner with a friend. If she was a southern belle, I wouldn't have had a second thought.
So while it may seem a trivial thing, it is an action which sits out of place with the standard explanation via occams razor.
I've been involved with my share of committed women and I know full well that from where things are at, I could sleep with her if I play it right.
Unfortunately doing so would mean that she isn't the woman which I find so compelling so I have to play this on the up and up, which is decidedly not an area of romance in which I have extensive experience.
For what it's worth, the relationship I got into could have lasted forever if he'd just gotten over himself. I didn't love him any less than I would have if we had done it "the right way".
While I get that, my own ego, vanity and sense of decorum require at least to a minimal level of doing things the right way.
I've never cheated on a woman in my life, and I can't imagine starting a relationship with a woman I view seriously in such a context.
That said, I find myself spiraling rapidly. There was a moment Tuesday night when she smiled and laughed where I fell, hard and since then it has only gotten worse.
Dinner last night was amazing, tonight we're going clubbing with some friends of mine. I have my doubts whether I'll survive the evening intact.
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Really it all distills down to the lip gloss for me. Everything else, while flirtatious and with a definite spark could be rationalized away to being friendly and having fun.
But hippy girls from Oregon, rarely if ever wear makeup and they surely don't make a point of putting it on for a spur of the moment dinner with a friend. If she was a southern belle, I wouldn't have had a second thought.
So while it may seem a trivial thing, it is an action which sits out of place with the standard explanation via occams razor.
I've been involved with my share of committed women and I know full well that from where things are at, I could sleep with her if I play it right.
Unfortunately doing so would mean that she isn't the woman which I find so compelling so I have to play this on the up and up, which is decidedly not an area of romance in which I have extensive experience.
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i don't know
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even if not what I was seeking
and
I am entirely in love with her
even if that means
I get my heart broken
at the end of the day
the juice
was worth the squeeze
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The chemistry was just that good.
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While I get that, my own ego, vanity and sense of decorum require at least to a minimal level of doing things the right way.
I've never cheated on a woman in my life, and I can't imagine starting a relationship with a woman I view seriously in such a context.
That said, I find myself spiraling rapidly. There was a moment Tuesday night when she smiled and laughed where I fell, hard and since then it has only gotten worse.
Dinner last night was amazing, tonight we're going clubbing with some friends of mine. I have my doubts whether I'll survive the evening intact.
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Whew. :)
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indeed
and if I ever am
with him or someone like him
let me know
so I can screen them
from important posts
and get your honest input.
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