"i may appear to be free but i'm just a prisoner"
i need change.
no more dicking around for me. i've been going to university as if i'm in highschool still. never studying thinking the night before will be enough to get by. clearly i'm living in teenager land and my best isn't enough. i'm getting killed by this fucking bell curve where everyone clearly is smarter than me. when i think about what exactly i need to do and give up just to pass a course i want to cry. but i have to do this. i have to review. i have to take notes upon notes. i have to ask for help. shitmotherfuckershitfuck. i've screwed myself over with all my first midterms, i'm like... barely passing most of my courses except english and straight up failing economics. so seriously, unless i want to drop all my classes minus english i need to re-evaluate my sad life. this jessica i thought i knew - the one that never studied and relied on luck is dead. time to actually work for something.
good bye easy days.
hello hell.
no more dicking around for me. i've been going to university as if i'm in highschool still. never studying thinking the night before will be enough to get by. clearly i'm living in teenager land and my best isn't enough. i'm getting killed by this fucking bell curve where everyone clearly is smarter than me. when i think about what exactly i need to do and give up just to pass a course i want to cry. but i have to do this. i have to review. i have to take notes upon notes. i have to ask for help. shitmotherfuckershitfuck. i've screwed myself over with all my first midterms, i'm like... barely passing most of my courses except english and straight up failing economics. so seriously, unless i want to drop all my classes minus english i need to re-evaluate my sad life. this jessica i thought i knew - the one that never studied and relied on luck is dead. time to actually work for something.
good bye easy days.
hello hell.