crap

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i hate this.  i put so much effort into this school and was so excited for this year when i could finally be with all of the people id grown to love and now i have to go back to the place where i hated life and wanted to die. theres noone in shaler i want to see. its going to screw up the whole year. i dont know if i can still go on dating scott, knowing that hes surrounded every day by girls who are better than me in every way and only being able to see him once a week. crap, i miss him so much. i wish he would email me like he said he would. i cant wait for him to get back.
theres so many people i miss and wanted to see so badly. i feel like people are just going to completely forget about me.
atleast i can still go to the football games.
fuck.