So Infatuated.
Deep conversation last night with the new lady, brought up some intense shit for both of us, which is pretty crazy because technically we just met. We talked about our relationship fears, our life fears, our life goals, on and on. All I have to say is, I am pretty impressed with her. I am also pretty impressed with my ability to find such amazing people in life, not just on a dating tip, but ingeneral. All of my friends are such great people who do such great things and are all so talented, and everyone I have ever dated, even those it ended badly with, are also such great people. It makes me feel confident that I am growing in the right directions, and that is always good to know you are accomplishing your one true goal.
That, and to be dating again..... not gunna lie, best thing ever. And what is really special? She takes everything slow, she knows she has got all the time in the world, so she doesn't rush a thing, which means there is plenty of room to get comfortable in, before starting to add all those crazy layers like sex, love, meeting friends and family. We are just 2 people hanging out trying to start a relationship built on friendship and kindness. We both have said how we have baggage we need to check at the door, and that we are somewhat scared of each other because people have done us wrong quite alot, but even in just admitting that, we are slowly dissolving it as an issue.
It was funny because literally a couple days before we met I was having a conversation with someone and they were like, "Man, you just need to get your fucking Shane on, pimp some girls, get yourself back in the saddle and boost your confidence..." And my response was, "I don't want to get my Shane on! I just want a Carmen, that's all I need.... I can be Shane, but I would rather be a Shane with a Carmen....." And now look, I literally find a Carmen. Crazy world we live in.
.......<3 Carmen <3.......
That, and to be dating again..... not gunna lie, best thing ever. And what is really special? She takes everything slow, she knows she has got all the time in the world, so she doesn't rush a thing, which means there is plenty of room to get comfortable in, before starting to add all those crazy layers like sex, love, meeting friends and family. We are just 2 people hanging out trying to start a relationship built on friendship and kindness. We both have said how we have baggage we need to check at the door, and that we are somewhat scared of each other because people have done us wrong quite alot, but even in just admitting that, we are slowly dissolving it as an issue.
It was funny because literally a couple days before we met I was having a conversation with someone and they were like, "Man, you just need to get your fucking Shane on, pimp some girls, get yourself back in the saddle and boost your confidence..." And my response was, "I don't want to get my Shane on! I just want a Carmen, that's all I need.... I can be Shane, but I would rather be a Shane with a Carmen....." And now look, I literally find a Carmen. Crazy world we live in.
.......<3 Carmen <3.......