A Moment Frozen in Time
So I didn't get home from her house until 5:30 in the morning. I wish I could control the flow of time, to make some moments last forever, and others to go by quickly. Last night would've been one of those moments that I could've just kept on living in. I can't remember the last time I cared about a girl this much before, and right now I can easily say my feelings are the strongest I've ever had for any girl. I'm not even worried where this is going anymore because I'm happy and she's happy too. It's almost to the point that I feel as if I love her, but I know most people would say that's crazy to think that since we're not dating, but is it really? I don't think it's crazy because even though we're not technically dating, the only difference in our relationship with each other from a couple who is dating, is that we can express affection without being phsyical. This is the first time in my life I've been with a girl that I'm attracted to, and that I like and want to be with, that I don't care about "getting some". Call me crazy if you will, but I can't help the way I feel.
I find it amusing how people treat the word love. An average person has no problem saying they love something like sports, cars, etc., but as soon as it comes time to say it to a person outside of your family, the word suddenly becomes sacred. They act as if there's something wrong about being in love with a person that you may not end up marrying. I've really heard it all, there's a difference between loving someone and "being in love with them". I've heard the differences between the words love, luv, and lov. It's almost childish how the average person approaches the concept of the word love.
I really don't buy into the whole word myself, since the actual concept of love is really about your actions towards that person rather than you simply saying I love you to them. After my first break up which involved a girl that I said, "I love you," too I was all anti-love and vowed to never say it again unless I really meant it, but the thing is I looked back and realized that I did love her. Sure things didn't work out, but that doesn't mean I didn't love her. That's why I was kind of hurt when I read one of those stupid survey things that Janelle did on my space where it asked if she had ever been in love, and of course she said, "No." It only hurts because she said the words too, and I could tell by her actions that she did love me, but it's just because that we didn't end up marrying each other that she decided she truly wasn't "in love" with me.
Now I'm not here trying to say I love anyone right now, or that I just say the word because it's only a word. I guess I'm just trying to say that I'm not ashamed of my feelings that I had for people in the past, even if things didn't work out. I'm also trying to say that if I feel I really do love a person, I'm going to tell them I do. I'm not going to sit there and wonder if it's the person that I'm going to marry, because that'd be ridiculous. If the prerequisite to saying I love you to a woman and to be able to truly mean it, that you have to end up marrying her, then you mine as well do some one stop shopping and get an engagement ring before you get ready to say it. However, if you ask a person if they'd get engaged after saying I love you for the first time, they'd probably look at you like you were crazy.
I don't know what the point of this whole entry is, just writing my thoughts out.
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."
-Robert Frost-
I find it amusing how people treat the word love. An average person has no problem saying they love something like sports, cars, etc., but as soon as it comes time to say it to a person outside of your family, the word suddenly becomes sacred. They act as if there's something wrong about being in love with a person that you may not end up marrying. I've really heard it all, there's a difference between loving someone and "being in love with them". I've heard the differences between the words love, luv, and lov. It's almost childish how the average person approaches the concept of the word love.
I really don't buy into the whole word myself, since the actual concept of love is really about your actions towards that person rather than you simply saying I love you to them. After my first break up which involved a girl that I said, "I love you," too I was all anti-love and vowed to never say it again unless I really meant it, but the thing is I looked back and realized that I did love her. Sure things didn't work out, but that doesn't mean I didn't love her. That's why I was kind of hurt when I read one of those stupid survey things that Janelle did on my space where it asked if she had ever been in love, and of course she said, "No." It only hurts because she said the words too, and I could tell by her actions that she did love me, but it's just because that we didn't end up marrying each other that she decided she truly wasn't "in love" with me.
Now I'm not here trying to say I love anyone right now, or that I just say the word because it's only a word. I guess I'm just trying to say that I'm not ashamed of my feelings that I had for people in the past, even if things didn't work out. I'm also trying to say that if I feel I really do love a person, I'm going to tell them I do. I'm not going to sit there and wonder if it's the person that I'm going to marry, because that'd be ridiculous. If the prerequisite to saying I love you to a woman and to be able to truly mean it, that you have to end up marrying her, then you mine as well do some one stop shopping and get an engagement ring before you get ready to say it. However, if you ask a person if they'd get engaged after saying I love you for the first time, they'd probably look at you like you were crazy.
I don't know what the point of this whole entry is, just writing my thoughts out.
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."
-Robert Frost-