A dish best served cold
I know it's wrong, but I can't help it. I have thoughts about showing up to our annual pay day dinner with another girl just to spite her. To show her what she gets for thinking that I would wait forever. It's a quest that I've already embarked upon, meeting new people simply just to fulfill this cruel intention. I can honestly say this is the first time being rejected in my life that I've felt like she's missing out, not me. This is the first time that it's taken merely just a couple hours of thought to get over it. It's weird though because I haven't told her any of this. As far as I'm concerned, she probably thinks that I still like her, and am patiently waiting for her response. To her, it's as if nothing has happened. Only if she knew the dark truth. I know it's fucked up to want to show up with a new girl to prove that I don't like her anymore, rather than to simply just tell her. I don't even know why I think these cruel ideas because to be honest I'm not even mad at her. In fact we act as if nothing even happened that night...as if I just kept my mouth shut and watched the football game. Like I said earlier, only if she knew the truth.
"If an injury has to be done to a man it should be so severe that his vengeance need not be feared."
-Niccolo Machiavelli-