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wilko read my journal. i feel really weird about it. i spose it was for the best though, like chloe said, at least now she knows. she blamed herself for everythnig like i thought she would. i really dont want her to though. i dont know whats gonna happen now, we both really dont know what to say. i dont even know how i feel about this, its this indescribable feeling, im so confused. i dont feel any less upset by the whole thing, im really emotional about it now that its all come out. this will be another sleepless night. the thing is, even if wilko tries to stop excluding me dani and jarrod are still gonna do it and she'll probably get bought into it. i dont know how this is gonna get any better still. i think i'll still not go to any group things for a while. i really cant handle anything at the moment, like tonight with mum and dadand i still cant even talk to wilko properly. having no idea where u stand with alot of ur friends sucks and having no idea if you can even go out with them sucks too.