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man....
I dont kno... I just dont kno anymore... : /
It really comes to easily for me to fuck up things...
why must it be this way?...
I think now that ive had time to think about the fact that uncle ron is a lieing cunt that the fact that him and John are not pretty much EVER comming up is not setling in... like I knew that they werent going to but I still hoped that they would... I just wish I could completely erase John from my memory ane w/e else... just anything ... I just want to be able to be happy again ... I want to be able to have a boyfriend for longer than a week without it killing me inside...because seriously "God" only knos how many girlfriends hes had or has now... there has got to be something that I can do to stop this shit because its litteraly tearing me upinside...
and then theres my not so new crush in which isnt u kno going anywhere because im me and ya... thats good enuf reasoning right there....
I seriously hate myself and I really truly wish that there was some way that I could just be someone else or something
blaaaaaaaaa im sorry for the double emo journal entries but ya....
I dont kno... I just dont kno anymore... : /
It really comes to easily for me to fuck up things...
why must it be this way?...
I think now that ive had time to think about the fact that uncle ron is a lieing cunt that the fact that him and John are not pretty much EVER comming up is not setling in... like I knew that they werent going to but I still hoped that they would... I just wish I could completely erase John from my memory ane w/e else... just anything ... I just want to be able to be happy again ... I want to be able to have a boyfriend for longer than a week without it killing me inside...because seriously "God" only knos how many girlfriends hes had or has now... there has got to be something that I can do to stop this shit because its litteraly tearing me upinside...
and then theres my not so new crush in which isnt u kno going anywhere because im me and ya... thats good enuf reasoning right there....
I seriously hate myself and I really truly wish that there was some way that I could just be someone else or something
blaaaaaaaaa im sorry for the double emo journal entries but ya....