Panic or Anxiety?
I feel like I'm about to drown. Like I have this panicky feeling lurking in my heart. My heart just beats harder and I'm restless and ansty. I can't concentrate or focus. I haven't had any stimulants like coffee and all I did today was go to the gym. I was emotionally stressed on Thursday and feeling down yesterday. Yesterday I had mad cravings like my my body was craving something and I kept looking for things to satiate it and even though I was full I kept looking for something. Today I would eat just a little something and I was full. Oh yeah, and I feel slightly panicky because it's hot and stuffy in my room despite the standing floor fan thats on high. My clothes bothered me because I was sticking to them. I'm not sure why I feel this way. There's just so much to cope and deal with. So many emotional pulls from the car accident and dealing with that and not having working because of it, Pascal and the all the hard bullshit, angry, and happy stuff I have to deal with. And summer school. And too many people in small a place (my family in this dinky house). And I gained weight because I was depressed and now I have to fight that too. I'm short, so I can't afford to gain much weight. I think I might be bordering hysteria and at the same time am far from it -- if I keep in control. I lloked up anxiety disorder and panic attacks and it doesn'r seem to be either one but I feel like I can't breathe enough air but not like an asthmatic way. I think its anxiety or panic. Oh well.