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kind of had a freak out at jessica's tonight. thought she had lied to me about something but she didn't. i just want this stress to go away. i dont want to be emotional anymore. no more crying. i'm sick of crying. i just want to be happy again. i really need my friends to be there for me right now to help me. i need to get better for my own sake. i need a new hobby or to find a job where i actually get out of the house. i'd like to learn how to knit. it hasn't even been a week yet... it's been so hard. i thought it would be easier than this.