"i am sad and i hate it and i just want my shrink to give me those pills"
The things i do for people, it's amazing
and the things people do for me, not bad either
I'm soo drained. i don't know what to do. i don't know weather i feel like shit. or im just bored. Mustange sally is dying, i don't want to lose her. i've put to much memories in her to ever let her go. And if They sell her, ill kill 'em.
And If i had gone There, I would have interupted nothing! Do you belive it?! so typical. It makes me so angry, i could scream. There goes a blown away year. or a year that blew away. fuck it. we're all dead some day, right? at least we had what we had. but i know, it's predictable with my life, that i'll never get back what i had. i've lost everything.
And i just found out. i hate it. whatever IT is. She sounds like all the fun has been placed at her feet. I must admit, im jelious. I've always been jelious. and i hate it.
i've had a few ups and quite a few downs. i see the kids playing. and i miss playing too. life is going too fast. and i don't know if im being sucked in or spit out. but i feel soo pulled down. spinning plates on my fingers, all upside down. And if it weren't for Her, right now, i don't know where i'd be. We're stuck in the same hole. Ripped apart for the others to eat us. i don't know. and i hate not knowing. should i stop or keep going? i want to keep going. but stopping would be better for me. I'm about ready to give up on what im longing. or am i gettting ready to explode?
signed and sealed
with a big red kiss
and the things people do for me, not bad either
I'm soo drained. i don't know what to do. i don't know weather i feel like shit. or im just bored. Mustange sally is dying, i don't want to lose her. i've put to much memories in her to ever let her go. And if They sell her, ill kill 'em.
And If i had gone There, I would have interupted nothing! Do you belive it?! so typical. It makes me so angry, i could scream. There goes a blown away year. or a year that blew away. fuck it. we're all dead some day, right? at least we had what we had. but i know, it's predictable with my life, that i'll never get back what i had. i've lost everything.
And i just found out. i hate it. whatever IT is. She sounds like all the fun has been placed at her feet. I must admit, im jelious. I've always been jelious. and i hate it.
i've had a few ups and quite a few downs. i see the kids playing. and i miss playing too. life is going too fast. and i don't know if im being sucked in or spit out. but i feel soo pulled down. spinning plates on my fingers, all upside down. And if it weren't for Her, right now, i don't know where i'd be. We're stuck in the same hole. Ripped apart for the others to eat us. i don't know. and i hate not knowing. should i stop or keep going? i want to keep going. but stopping would be better for me. I'm about ready to give up on what im longing. or am i gettting ready to explode?
signed and sealed
with a big red kiss