"Just Jump Over"
So 18... yeah.. i thought it was getting better, but it's not.
I'm supposed to be going to france right now, but no. I'm hated by people who have no reason to hate me. Im so lost in it all, soo depressed, handleing it, but not doing soo hot. it's the worst I've ever lost and the worst ive ever felt and my dad tried soo hard for me to go, and now.... who knows the next time i'lll see auriane again... maybe a year, if im lucky... if im lucky.... but that's too long, too heartbreaking, too shitty, and too much.
I saw a doctor about it yesterday, she thinks its temperary, HA! what does she know, but at least I could talk to her and tell her everything and she would listen..... but it was kinda weird she asked me weird quetions, pretty random if you ask me, if I was a lesbian and if a did drugs and shit like that...she thinks she knows me, but she doesn't, fuck her and fuck my teachers
Wednesday sucked nuts, royally... almost got busted big time, but some how, some way, i didn't, i don't get it, when I'm expecting it the most, it doesn't happen, well that's my luck for ya. When it needs dearly to come out alright, it does... welll atleast for the most part.... but thatnk you kids for telling me it would be alright, because you were right. and I over reacted, but I feared for the worst.
But to top it off, i was realizing, realixing before the copper shined his killer light in our eyes and before they pulled up in an undercover mini van. I noticed, that I like the people I hang out with. I really do. And so should everyone, but I really realized that these kids, my friends, most the people I consider my friends at least, are really interesting people that are always gonna be great, and I love that, I really do. I wonder what life is gonna be in 20 years.
But the coolest thing, probally, about this week, is my teacher , Mr. Fenton said 2 great lines this week, at least from a teacher.
"Shut up or die."
"...no, I'd do something more than put pot in [the teachers] food... I'd put Acid in thier drinks...haha."
I really like him as a teacher and a person... I can tell him anything and he wouldn't tell. and he was telling me how he used to go shoplifting when he was younger and tagging when he lived in new york and protesting, and i think that that is awsome.
yeah
<3 another face in the crowd with sex, drugs, & rock n'roll
ps. i think my audtion in bosten went well.
I'm supposed to be going to france right now, but no. I'm hated by people who have no reason to hate me. Im so lost in it all, soo depressed, handleing it, but not doing soo hot. it's the worst I've ever lost and the worst ive ever felt and my dad tried soo hard for me to go, and now.... who knows the next time i'lll see auriane again... maybe a year, if im lucky... if im lucky.... but that's too long, too heartbreaking, too shitty, and too much.
I saw a doctor about it yesterday, she thinks its temperary, HA! what does she know, but at least I could talk to her and tell her everything and she would listen..... but it was kinda weird she asked me weird quetions, pretty random if you ask me, if I was a lesbian and if a did drugs and shit like that...she thinks she knows me, but she doesn't, fuck her and fuck my teachers
Wednesday sucked nuts, royally... almost got busted big time, but some how, some way, i didn't, i don't get it, when I'm expecting it the most, it doesn't happen, well that's my luck for ya. When it needs dearly to come out alright, it does... welll atleast for the most part.... but thatnk you kids for telling me it would be alright, because you were right. and I over reacted, but I feared for the worst.
But to top it off, i was realizing, realixing before the copper shined his killer light in our eyes and before they pulled up in an undercover mini van. I noticed, that I like the people I hang out with. I really do. And so should everyone, but I really realized that these kids, my friends, most the people I consider my friends at least, are really interesting people that are always gonna be great, and I love that, I really do. I wonder what life is gonna be in 20 years.
But the coolest thing, probally, about this week, is my teacher , Mr. Fenton said 2 great lines this week, at least from a teacher.
"Shut up or die."
"...no, I'd do something more than put pot in [the teachers] food... I'd put Acid in thier drinks...haha."
I really like him as a teacher and a person... I can tell him anything and he wouldn't tell. and he was telling me how he used to go shoplifting when he was younger and tagging when he lived in new york and protesting, and i think that that is awsome.
yeah
<3 another face in the crowd with sex, drugs, & rock n'roll
ps. i think my audtion in bosten went well.