and I know, that our integrity is the grayest of the gray
I wonder what how the people around me handle me. They'll be times when I know I shouldn't say or act a certain way, but I do anyways. I have a problem with getting my point across without yelling or screaming-I can't seem to figure out what triggers it either. When I care so much about someone or something I tend to jump to conclusions and misunderstand things they say or do. It's pathetic to think that I get pissed at myself. Once I know I've said something I shouldn't have I go back and apologize thinking it will help when in all actuality it just portrays me as being nuts.
We got my cats ashes back. How crazy is that. At first I flipped out and said that was sick and wrong and we should just bury him like normal people do. But now I'm okay with it. I would definitely have made shit out of someone that cremated their animal a year ago, but now I kind of understand why some people do it. KIND of.
Tomorrow me and a girl I work with are heading to U of I for a night with my brother. I thought I wanted to go but now I'm skeptical. I will go though, I feel like I have to prove something to someone. Maybe it's the wrong way of looking at it but if I don't go it would be like this person would never know whether or not they can trust me.
I didn't go to school today because I was sick or just could not stop sleeping since yesterday. I really don't feel up to going to work but I don't work enough to pull a pussy move. After I just really want to see ricola.
We got my cats ashes back. How crazy is that. At first I flipped out and said that was sick and wrong and we should just bury him like normal people do. But now I'm okay with it. I would definitely have made shit out of someone that cremated their animal a year ago, but now I kind of understand why some people do it. KIND of.
Tomorrow me and a girl I work with are heading to U of I for a night with my brother. I thought I wanted to go but now I'm skeptical. I will go though, I feel like I have to prove something to someone. Maybe it's the wrong way of looking at it but if I don't go it would be like this person would never know whether or not they can trust me.
I didn't go to school today because I was sick or just could not stop sleeping since yesterday. I really don't feel up to going to work but I don't work enough to pull a pussy move. After I just really want to see ricola.