Even I get scared at sometimes
I've been sewing alot this last week, preparing for the RAW:austin fashion show. But today I felt like I hit a wall.
I've always been the weird girl. Always. I've been a nerd and an outcast since I was a wee little munchikin, so it was no surprise when I started sewing so I could make the kinds of clothing I felt fit who I was. At the time, it was cosplay. i did my first cosplay in 98', before the big anime boom of the early 2000s, ya know. This only set to make me even stranger in the eyes of my peers.
That skill has grown alot over the years, and instead of copying other designs I'm making my on now, but at times like this i wonder if i really have any talent at all or if I'm still just the weird girl and people just humor me. Everyone is insecure sometimes, especially about the things that mean the most to them. Art is a reflection of your soul, so it's hard to take criticism. I haven't gotten any, so I'm no upset or anything. Just reflecting on this feeling.
I hope when my clothes go down that runway people don't see it as 'oh the wird girls makes clothes now, great...' but instead see the part of my soul I believe is beautiful, my art.
I'm rambeling now. LOL I tend to do that, but I do feel a bit better for venting.
I guess it's back to the sewing machine. Still have work to do. ^^
much love and aloha
me
I've always been the weird girl. Always. I've been a nerd and an outcast since I was a wee little munchikin, so it was no surprise when I started sewing so I could make the kinds of clothing I felt fit who I was. At the time, it was cosplay. i did my first cosplay in 98', before the big anime boom of the early 2000s, ya know. This only set to make me even stranger in the eyes of my peers.
That skill has grown alot over the years, and instead of copying other designs I'm making my on now, but at times like this i wonder if i really have any talent at all or if I'm still just the weird girl and people just humor me. Everyone is insecure sometimes, especially about the things that mean the most to them. Art is a reflection of your soul, so it's hard to take criticism. I haven't gotten any, so I'm no upset or anything. Just reflecting on this feeling.
I hope when my clothes go down that runway people don't see it as 'oh the wird girls makes clothes now, great...' but instead see the part of my soul I believe is beautiful, my art.
I'm rambeling now. LOL I tend to do that, but I do feel a bit better for venting.
I guess it's back to the sewing machine. Still have work to do. ^^
much love and aloha
me