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Let us begin with a haiku.
I am beginning
to wonder if anyone
loves LJ like me.
I remember when this place was hoppin'. Now, it resembles more of a ghost town. I've been an LJ member for eight years now, though. And it will take more than a drought to run me off [much to some's dismay, I'm sure].
Onward!
I am excited that it is my last shift of the week. I am starting to enjoy the little things about life again, and I feel that I'm slowly regaining a connection with the self that was lost when my problems with anxiety truly blew up in my face. I feel that change is in the cards for me, and it is about time, too.
It may be another 2-3 weeks before TJ can go back to work. We're hoping that is the case. Once he goes back to work, most of our money problems will be quickly diminished. In the meantime, I remain at the group home until a new project opens up for me. I enjoy working here, despite crazy hours and feeling zombified on a regular basis. It gives me a lot of time to do the things I enjoy when I'm not on laundry duty or doing bed checks. I think the timing for this job was pretty perfect, as I was way too stressed out in general. The pay is pretty terrible, but it at least pays for our cars.
I am in the process of setting up another photoshoot, possibly for two weeks from Saturday. I am really happy to be getting so much experience this year. It's really my fault that I didn't in the past. I had some hangups with myself and outside stressers that really held me back from going after what I wanted. I will be doing no more of that. Right now, I am trying to get good range and advance/expand upon what it is I am doing. I hope that those efforts transfer over to my photos. I do seem to be getting better response as I keep going along. I also need to plan a trip to Huntington. A photographer friend of mine wants to shoot me. I love his work, and you can tell he truly enjoys his craft. I think there would be a lot of good energy flowing. As I become more comfortable, there will be a noticable change in the subject matter of my photos. Right now, I enjoy that I can do something remotely glamorous and can also pull off horror at the same time. I will continue to do this, but I have other styles I will be incorporating soon.
The new workout is going very well. I feel better, and I am seeing changes already. I have been pushing myself really hard to achieve my goals. I expect a completely new me. I go back tomorrow for more.
I hope that the weather is what is screwing me up and that I'm not getting sick again. Three sinus infections (one lasting three months), several colds, pneumonia, supposedly pleurisy, a yeast infection and an ear infection are enough for one year. And those are only the things I could pinpoint/ was formally diagnosed with. I'm pretty sure I've already had swine flu, too. My allergies were also the worst they have been in probably 10 years.
It has just been a rough year in general -- emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. I look forward to the change on the horizon.
And I don't know if I have mentioned this, but it has been 6.5 weeks since I quit smoking and I still haven't cheated.
I am beginning
to wonder if anyone
loves LJ like me.
I remember when this place was hoppin'. Now, it resembles more of a ghost town. I've been an LJ member for eight years now, though. And it will take more than a drought to run me off [much to some's dismay, I'm sure].
Onward!
I am excited that it is my last shift of the week. I am starting to enjoy the little things about life again, and I feel that I'm slowly regaining a connection with the self that was lost when my problems with anxiety truly blew up in my face. I feel that change is in the cards for me, and it is about time, too.
It may be another 2-3 weeks before TJ can go back to work. We're hoping that is the case. Once he goes back to work, most of our money problems will be quickly diminished. In the meantime, I remain at the group home until a new project opens up for me. I enjoy working here, despite crazy hours and feeling zombified on a regular basis. It gives me a lot of time to do the things I enjoy when I'm not on laundry duty or doing bed checks. I think the timing for this job was pretty perfect, as I was way too stressed out in general. The pay is pretty terrible, but it at least pays for our cars.
I am in the process of setting up another photoshoot, possibly for two weeks from Saturday. I am really happy to be getting so much experience this year. It's really my fault that I didn't in the past. I had some hangups with myself and outside stressers that really held me back from going after what I wanted. I will be doing no more of that. Right now, I am trying to get good range and advance/expand upon what it is I am doing. I hope that those efforts transfer over to my photos. I do seem to be getting better response as I keep going along. I also need to plan a trip to Huntington. A photographer friend of mine wants to shoot me. I love his work, and you can tell he truly enjoys his craft. I think there would be a lot of good energy flowing. As I become more comfortable, there will be a noticable change in the subject matter of my photos. Right now, I enjoy that I can do something remotely glamorous and can also pull off horror at the same time. I will continue to do this, but I have other styles I will be incorporating soon.
The new workout is going very well. I feel better, and I am seeing changes already. I have been pushing myself really hard to achieve my goals. I expect a completely new me. I go back tomorrow for more.
I hope that the weather is what is screwing me up and that I'm not getting sick again. Three sinus infections (one lasting three months), several colds, pneumonia, supposedly pleurisy, a yeast infection and an ear infection are enough for one year. And those are only the things I could pinpoint/ was formally diagnosed with. I'm pretty sure I've already had swine flu, too. My allergies were also the worst they have been in probably 10 years.
It has just been a rough year in general -- emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. I look forward to the change on the horizon.
And I don't know if I have mentioned this, but it has been 6.5 weeks since I quit smoking and I still haven't cheated.