0433 -- On Late Night Conversations.
Last night, I had one of the most interesting conversations I'd had in a long time about humans, our purpose and what confines us and defines us. It felt excellent to be communicating in this way. It felt like I was actually serving some purpose -- that I speak and people listen, that my words aren't just a haphazard combination of sound spilling from my lips.
Before I went to bed, I wrote to TJ that I love him forever and always. I also sent Clinton this:
It is the middle of the night, and I'm still awake. My thoughts are with you no matter how far away, for however long, but every second with you is bliss. You have completely enthralled me in a way I will never be able to explain. You have created a charge in me. You have inspired me, helped me evolve into a better version of myself. You make me truly happy. You have made me feel things inside of myself that I forgot existed. I'll always wish we had more time because when I'm with you, I never want it to end. You have reminded me of my worth. You've made me feel truly appreciated. I hope that I can do even just a milligram of what you've done for me.
I'm half asleep, but I just thought you should know that you're an amazing man, Clinton Clay, and I wouldn't have you any other way -- I like all parts of you. ♥
Introspection is excellent. Expressing myself feels liberating. I feel so fucking alive for the first time in so long, and I never want it to end.
Before I went to bed, I wrote to TJ that I love him forever and always. I also sent Clinton this:
It is the middle of the night, and I'm still awake. My thoughts are with you no matter how far away, for however long, but every second with you is bliss. You have completely enthralled me in a way I will never be able to explain. You have created a charge in me. You have inspired me, helped me evolve into a better version of myself. You make me truly happy. You have made me feel things inside of myself that I forgot existed. I'll always wish we had more time because when I'm with you, I never want it to end. You have reminded me of my worth. You've made me feel truly appreciated. I hope that I can do even just a milligram of what you've done for me.
I'm half asleep, but I just thought you should know that you're an amazing man, Clinton Clay, and I wouldn't have you any other way -- I like all parts of you. ♥
Introspection is excellent. Expressing myself feels liberating. I feel so fucking alive for the first time in so long, and I never want it to end.