*takes a breath*
Its the third day of tension for me, however I am feeling a tad bit better, the sensations of being rushed, the world caving in. The dire need to shrike "Oh Noo~Oo" in union with arm flailing has diminished to a simple, and soft, sigh.
For those who had read and responded to my previous journal; I do thank you and hold you close to my heart. In this cold and dark world which I have allowed to influence me.
@Mimichan, I've love to hang out, granted I am as poor as poo from time to time, I would like to invite you over. meet the family again, I do miss the old and simple days of just Rping on paper, going for a walk, freaking DDR ! hahaa, movies..
@Micha, You are closer to my heart than I had thought, I thank you kindly for being here and understanding, loving me despite the complications. The simple act was enough, no more to get me out of my slump and I kindly and humbly thank you for that. You tolerance is admiring and enlightening. I shall try to practice what I preach..
@Kimi, If I could hug you now, I surely would.. the card did bring a smile to my face, not only that I was able to flush some of my worries down the drain. and I know, with it allot more shall go paving way for greater thoughts and purpose.
@Lolo, I was feeling down enough to open your package, (Sorry Kimi, we are to open our together, but the amount of gummies, Freaking Cloisonnes Fish, Chopstick Fish, pictures and my very own Paper children...I NEVER HAD PAPER CHILDREN BEFORE.. seriously made me feel...ah, well presented. The presitation of it along with all the heart sparkles-just-wow, I bow in shame of what I am able to present to you. I do hope you can hold it close to your heart as I will hold yours.
I suppose, it is because I know what I am capable of and yet I am unable/AFRAID to get others (Real World Market ) to see me, I am going to have to just take a leap of faith on this. Maybe print out some pictures, go downtown and sale..
I've already spiffed up my portfolio, perhaps I need a WebSite, one that directs people strictly to my portfolio, tutorials, commissions and more... Maybe I need to grow out of FA and Da, but keep them as a gateways?
Either way, I dreamt last night, Sorasuar was having a party for everyone he knew. There they ate pancakes, sweets, STEAK and meats. Laughed and danced and even gazed at the stars for a while..It was as if they were on the Heavy Side Layer, but didnt implode or die XD hahaha.. We walked on air, beneath us the earth! above the stars..there was no Sky, only us. and it was a nice feeling. and in the end, we watched the Aurora Borealis on both caps, shooting stars, super novas!
in the center of all this was a tree, Micha had reminded me off, a tree I adored and wished could speak. And it did, spoke similar to an Ant, but we all had all the time in the world. and didn't care about the lag, our minds were above earthly things. a motion of peace, moment of content and tranquility. Finally it all ended with bang, Literally, fireworks (Hanabi, we called them) danced about them, they weren't of the norm kind, there were brilliant illuminating flowers with sparkler tips that blossomed, flipped and fluttered off into the dark space; like jellyfish,birds, butterflies and spinning lilies.
It was nice
For those who had read and responded to my previous journal; I do thank you and hold you close to my heart. In this cold and dark world which I have allowed to influence me.
@Mimichan, I've love to hang out, granted I am as poor as poo from time to time, I would like to invite you over. meet the family again, I do miss the old and simple days of just Rping on paper, going for a walk, freaking DDR ! hahaa, movies..
@Micha, You are closer to my heart than I had thought, I thank you kindly for being here and understanding, loving me despite the complications. The simple act was enough, no more to get me out of my slump and I kindly and humbly thank you for that. You tolerance is admiring and enlightening. I shall try to practice what I preach..
@Kimi, If I could hug you now, I surely would.. the card did bring a smile to my face, not only that I was able to flush some of my worries down the drain. and I know, with it allot more shall go paving way for greater thoughts and purpose.
@Lolo, I was feeling down enough to open your package, (Sorry Kimi, we are to open our together, but the amount of gummies, Freaking Cloisonnes Fish, Chopstick Fish, pictures and my very own Paper children...I NEVER HAD PAPER CHILDREN BEFORE.. seriously made me feel...ah, well presented. The presitation of it along with all the heart sparkles-just-wow, I bow in shame of what I am able to present to you. I do hope you can hold it close to your heart as I will hold yours.
I suppose, it is because I know what I am capable of and yet I am unable/AFRAID to get others (Real World Market ) to see me, I am going to have to just take a leap of faith on this. Maybe print out some pictures, go downtown and sale..
I've already spiffed up my portfolio, perhaps I need a WebSite, one that directs people strictly to my portfolio, tutorials, commissions and more... Maybe I need to grow out of FA and Da, but keep them as a gateways?
Either way, I dreamt last night, Sorasuar was having a party for everyone he knew. There they ate pancakes, sweets, STEAK and meats. Laughed and danced and even gazed at the stars for a while..It was as if they were on the Heavy Side Layer, but didnt implode or die XD hahaha.. We walked on air, beneath us the earth! above the stars..there was no Sky, only us. and it was a nice feeling. and in the end, we watched the Aurora Borealis on both caps, shooting stars, super novas!
in the center of all this was a tree, Micha had reminded me off, a tree I adored and wished could speak. And it did, spoke similar to an Ant, but we all had all the time in the world. and didn't care about the lag, our minds were above earthly things. a motion of peace, moment of content and tranquility. Finally it all ended with bang, Literally, fireworks (Hanabi, we called them) danced about them, they weren't of the norm kind, there were brilliant illuminating flowers with sparkler tips that blossomed, flipped and fluttered off into the dark space; like jellyfish,birds, butterflies and spinning lilies.
It was nice