yuck
i feel like total shit today. i woke up with a sore throat, runny nose, and upset tummy...all while gettin chills down my spine. yeah, it sucked...everytime i think of that pink medicine they made me chug, i feel like barfing! grrr
i can't eat, i can't sleep...gosh, here i go again. and the worst part is that i had the worst fucking dream about donald...i woke up all sad and depressed, it was weird as hell and then i woke up saying 'youre still with jamie?' ack i move on with unanswered questions. my heart hurts, and i didn't think being in love would tear me apart this much.
it's so hard. grr. what can i do? god, there is nothing i CAN do and that's what makes it worse. i wish donald would call me, if he did, i would stop puttin up an act and tell him my true feelings, tell him i love him, and we need to and can make this work. i don't know if i can go on like this, i mean...go on with my 'love life' like this. imisshim.
rick can be so nice sometimes but he can not compare. and last nite was just so horrible we got into a HUGE psychotic fight. he makes me so fucking mad and angry, he acts like a dumb ass, and acts like words have no meaning. i dont KNOW how to make it work. i just don't know. and i feel like a depressed loser.
i can't eat, i can't sleep...gosh, here i go again. and the worst part is that i had the worst fucking dream about donald...i woke up all sad and depressed, it was weird as hell and then i woke up saying 'youre still with jamie?' ack i move on with unanswered questions. my heart hurts, and i didn't think being in love would tear me apart this much.
it's so hard. grr. what can i do? god, there is nothing i CAN do and that's what makes it worse. i wish donald would call me, if he did, i would stop puttin up an act and tell him my true feelings, tell him i love him, and we need to and can make this work. i don't know if i can go on like this, i mean...go on with my 'love life' like this. imisshim.
rick can be so nice sometimes but he can not compare. and last nite was just so horrible we got into a HUGE psychotic fight. he makes me so fucking mad and angry, he acts like a dumb ass, and acts like words have no meaning. i dont KNOW how to make it work. i just don't know. and i feel like a depressed loser.