Hear your voice of treason
Quick update from here in Shelton due to my extrememly limited internet access. Its almsot non-existant. I dont even know if Ill get to finish this before I have to go drive someone somewhere or someone kicks me off. Oh well, such is life in a small town. To all you with DSL, I envy you.
The last week back home has been just as Lauren described hers, a blur. Its going by so fast. Shockingly enough Im not ready to go back yet, especially considering what Ive been dealing with here. Not but a few days after my arrival back in my college-student devoid town my mother decided to slip and dislocate her knee. In the words of Brett "The nerve of that bitch." What does this mean to me? you may ask. Well it basically means that Ive spent the days since then driving her and my brother around, and playing mommy to a family that I havent seen in months. I am not the mommy. I do not cook and clean, I do not keep the familys schedule. All this just strengthens my position on no kids, ever. Arg!
So my days have consisted mainly of get up, drive mother and brother around, make/eat dinner, go out at night (if I am so blessed). I cant wait until Paul, Vinny and the other UConn-ites get home. Life will be as it was. We are re-instituting soccer and ultimate frisbee Tuesdays and Thursdays and life will be as it should be. Simple again. Setback, Hearts and poker with the guys. Some good contact sports. Get my feet nice and dirty, stay up and sleep late. Maybe a few drownings in Pauls pool or hot tub. Even now the first of the guys are beginning to roll back into town. Dave is getting back from FIT in Florida tonight and were kicking it off by goin out. Where to? Who cares. At least we have somewhere non-smokey to go play pool now.
There have been a few people making life back in Shelton pre-UConn exodus worthwhile though. My brother, for one, has been awesome. Love him to death and miss him almost as much when Im in Boston. I dont mind driving the kid everywhere, its actually a pleasure. We get along splendidly as of late, which causes almost as many problems as when we were fighting as kids. We were joking around not but an hour ago and I threw a book at him and put a hole in my living room wall (dont tell my father, hes gona shoot me). Spending a lot of time with certain other people around here, non family style. Been a pleasant suprise. Shot some pool, went out to lunch. Im smiling and theres nothing wrong with that. Caldera came down from Mass to visit yesterday through today. We had a good time, hes gone now. He woke me up at 8am this morning, grr.
Obviously with coming home there have been some dissapointments. Certain expected phone calls havent come. Sometimes life doesnt work out the way its supposed to I guess. Approximately 1/4 of my time at home has expired. Im hoping that these calls will come before its time for my return to Boston. I have to remember they are all still taking finals and such as well. We'll see what happens. I havent kept in as close contact with some people from school as I thought I would as well. There are some I havent spoken to at all. I wonder what it all means. On the flip side there are a few select people Ive talked to almost everyday. Copious amounts of love for them. Miss everyone so much.
Well my mothers screeching for me again, she needs something. I gotta go drive my brother on his date tonight then figure the rest of the night out for myself. Peace!
*Where are you? And Im so sorry. I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight. I need somebody and always. This sick, strange darkness comes creeping on. So haunting everytime. And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders catching things and eating their insides. Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason, will you come home and stop this pain tonight? Stop this pain tonight. Dont waste your time on me youre already the voice inside my head. I miss you.*
Lesson(s) of the Day:
-Life throws the most interesting curves your way when you least expect them.
-Ill never give up till I catch that big fish.
-I just cant get you out of my head.
-My parents are just as annoying as always, I love them though.
-I miss my brother.
-I miss my friend.
-You never keep in touch with those you expect to.
-Driving again is awesome!
-I cant wait for UConn to get out.
-Youre the angel from my nightmare.
-Everything goes full circle.
-I love my hometown.
The last week back home has been just as Lauren described hers, a blur. Its going by so fast. Shockingly enough Im not ready to go back yet, especially considering what Ive been dealing with here. Not but a few days after my arrival back in my college-student devoid town my mother decided to slip and dislocate her knee. In the words of Brett "The nerve of that bitch." What does this mean to me? you may ask. Well it basically means that Ive spent the days since then driving her and my brother around, and playing mommy to a family that I havent seen in months. I am not the mommy. I do not cook and clean, I do not keep the familys schedule. All this just strengthens my position on no kids, ever. Arg!
So my days have consisted mainly of get up, drive mother and brother around, make/eat dinner, go out at night (if I am so blessed). I cant wait until Paul, Vinny and the other UConn-ites get home. Life will be as it was. We are re-instituting soccer and ultimate frisbee Tuesdays and Thursdays and life will be as it should be. Simple again. Setback, Hearts and poker with the guys. Some good contact sports. Get my feet nice and dirty, stay up and sleep late. Maybe a few drownings in Pauls pool or hot tub. Even now the first of the guys are beginning to roll back into town. Dave is getting back from FIT in Florida tonight and were kicking it off by goin out. Where to? Who cares. At least we have somewhere non-smokey to go play pool now.
There have been a few people making life back in Shelton pre-UConn exodus worthwhile though. My brother, for one, has been awesome. Love him to death and miss him almost as much when Im in Boston. I dont mind driving the kid everywhere, its actually a pleasure. We get along splendidly as of late, which causes almost as many problems as when we were fighting as kids. We were joking around not but an hour ago and I threw a book at him and put a hole in my living room wall (dont tell my father, hes gona shoot me). Spending a lot of time with certain other people around here, non family style. Been a pleasant suprise. Shot some pool, went out to lunch. Im smiling and theres nothing wrong with that. Caldera came down from Mass to visit yesterday through today. We had a good time, hes gone now. He woke me up at 8am this morning, grr.
Obviously with coming home there have been some dissapointments. Certain expected phone calls havent come. Sometimes life doesnt work out the way its supposed to I guess. Approximately 1/4 of my time at home has expired. Im hoping that these calls will come before its time for my return to Boston. I have to remember they are all still taking finals and such as well. We'll see what happens. I havent kept in as close contact with some people from school as I thought I would as well. There are some I havent spoken to at all. I wonder what it all means. On the flip side there are a few select people Ive talked to almost everyday. Copious amounts of love for them. Miss everyone so much.
Well my mothers screeching for me again, she needs something. I gotta go drive my brother on his date tonight then figure the rest of the night out for myself. Peace!
*Where are you? And Im so sorry. I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight. I need somebody and always. This sick, strange darkness comes creeping on. So haunting everytime. And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders catching things and eating their insides. Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason, will you come home and stop this pain tonight? Stop this pain tonight. Dont waste your time on me youre already the voice inside my head. I miss you.*
Lesson(s) of the Day:
-Life throws the most interesting curves your way when you least expect them.
-Ill never give up till I catch that big fish.
-I just cant get you out of my head.
-My parents are just as annoying as always, I love them though.
-I miss my brother.
-I miss my friend.
-You never keep in touch with those you expect to.
-Driving again is awesome!
-I cant wait for UConn to get out.
-Youre the angel from my nightmare.
-Everything goes full circle.
-I love my hometown.