hmm...
its funny how I turn to my live journal when I have much more important things to worry about... for example, the final I have at 3:00 tomorrow or the two I have on Friday... But instead, I can't force myself to look at a book for more than half an hour at a time. If you've been watching me in the lounge, you'll see that I sit and read intently for 20-30 minutes, and then I just have to get up and leave and go SOMEWHERE... including my little stair running escapade tonight. (I had a tiny bit too much energy from eating candy canes and Oreos all day...so I ran up and down the stairs three times..)
I think I am going slightly crazy right now tho.. and its really hard to see everyone around me finishing their finals and I haven't even started yet. Also, its difficult because I hardly ever studied last year, and I did pretty well, but this year I'm living with a bunch of people who have never been through this experience before, and their studying like their lives depend on it.. so I feel guilty if I'm not buckling down and non stop working.. but I don't WANT to.. haha I'm so conflicted... and crazy, going crazy.
Not too much else to talk about, I guess. I hate the fact that I can recognize my problems and say things like "this is really immature of me" and yet I can't seem to fix it. I need to be better. I need to feel better about myself, and at the same time recognize my faults. My self esteem was doing slightly better, but it recently took a small nosedive....I just need to rebuild again. I'm a work in progress.
One final thought: I need other people. Everyone needs other people, even when they think that they don't.
I think I am going slightly crazy right now tho.. and its really hard to see everyone around me finishing their finals and I haven't even started yet. Also, its difficult because I hardly ever studied last year, and I did pretty well, but this year I'm living with a bunch of people who have never been through this experience before, and their studying like their lives depend on it.. so I feel guilty if I'm not buckling down and non stop working.. but I don't WANT to.. haha I'm so conflicted... and crazy, going crazy.
Not too much else to talk about, I guess. I hate the fact that I can recognize my problems and say things like "this is really immature of me" and yet I can't seem to fix it. I need to be better. I need to feel better about myself, and at the same time recognize my faults. My self esteem was doing slightly better, but it recently took a small nosedive....I just need to rebuild again. I'm a work in progress.
One final thought: I need other people. Everyone needs other people, even when they think that they don't.