I completely understand where you are coming from. I get like this as well. I worry a lot about things I can't control and I have a tendency to make things a worse case scenario. It's all inside of my head though. I don't usually vocalize my thoughts for fear of being told I'm irrational and ridiculous.
I did have a panic attack within the past year or so though...and it was at work too. I had taken a phone call with a customer, who was beyond irate. Irrational, actually. To the point where he was threatening to get the federal government after me and he would have me "put in federal prison" if I said the wrong thing to him. And it was nothing related to me or anyone in our back office. It had to do with people he was dealing with in person. He just needed us to close his account. The guy was so forceful and intimidating (because, as you know, you can't say what you really want to say to these people, you have to take their abuse), that I had to pass the call off to my manager. Where he got berated to the same degree. As soon as I passed it off, I left my desk and stood in the bathroom for a good 20 minutes trying to calm myself down. I was crying, hyperventilating, shaking. It was absolutely awful. I just kept saying "THIS IS WHY I LEFT RETAIL! I CAN'T HANDLE THIS ANYMORE!"
Retail is bad, but at least the customer is only temporary. I hate having conflict at a job with another employee. There isn't anywhere to escape to if you get scheduled with them and it's worse if they're one of your bosses. It makes me just want to quit. I wish I had the ability to stand up to her and call her out on her shit, but that anxiety won't let me. I hate it.
Sorry about what happened to you. That sounds scary. :(
I did have a panic attack within the past year or so though...and it was at work too. I had taken a phone call with a customer, who was beyond irate. Irrational, actually. To the point where he was threatening to get the federal government after me and he would have me "put in federal prison" if I said the wrong thing to him. And it was nothing related to me or anyone in our back office. It had to do with people he was dealing with in person. He just needed us to close his account. The guy was so forceful and intimidating (because, as you know, you can't say what you really want to say to these people, you have to take their abuse), that I had to pass the call off to my manager. Where he got berated to the same degree. As soon as I passed it off, I left my desk and stood in the bathroom for a good 20 minutes trying to calm myself down. I was crying, hyperventilating, shaking. It was absolutely awful. I just kept saying "THIS IS WHY I LEFT RETAIL! I CAN'T HANDLE THIS ANYMORE!"
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Sorry about what happened to you. That sounds scary. :(
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