Jan 06, 2005 21:40
sony called me for like 5 minutes tonight from the hospital. his sister just had a baby girl. i didnt even kno she was pregnant! theyre both okay tho. the baby weighs about 7 lbs and is completely healthy. he was really excited to tell me. they named her "kevi." isnt that odd? haha o well. sony says shes a really cute baby. he was gonna call me whenever he got home but that was like 3 hours ago so idk if hes actually gonna call. prolly not cuz it'll b ten soon and i cant talk after ten. ill just talk to him tomorrow. wait, no i wont prolly cuz he has drill tomorrow.... maybe tomorrow night. yea ill talk to him then.
i talked to jeremy a lot tonight. we talked about everything. parents, being adopted, foster care, relationships, dreams, friends, movies, music, snowboarding, school, animals, journaling, astrology, food... we literally talked about EVERYTHING. it was cool tho. it helped. i was feelin pretty crappy earlier today but, as usual, talking to jeremy made me feel tons better. i told him about everything that was on my mind and he told me about everything that was on his. just venting to him made it all seem better. we havnt actually had a real talk like that in a long time. we even talked about God and religion... and sony. i dont think theres anything we missed. it was relieving to kno that i can still talk to him like that about anything even tho we're not together anymore. i think i was just havin a small breakdown earlier today. i had had too much time to think about things and it was hard to stay positive when i didnt have anyone to tell me it was all okay.
my foster parents are very curious as to why i would put a journal online for everyone in the world to see. they think its a horrible idea and they cant even begin to fathom why i would want everyone else to see my thoughts. i like it becuause its like im actually talking to someone and all they can do is listen. and no one except jeremy actually knows me on here so i dont really care wat anyone else thinks about my life. no one can judge me or humiliate me when they read this cuz they have no idea who i am. i tell jeremy everything anyway so i dont care if he reads every single journal entry ive ever written in my life. talking to him is like journaling, but i cant always talk to him so this is a good way to get things off my mind. it helps me not to get overwhelmed and its far more organized than making a journal on word processer. also, u need a password to read my journal from my house, but if its on word then all u have to do is look in my documents. this way i feel more secure when i journal cuz theres less of a chance of anyone that i kno actually reading it. i should have told my parents that. maybe then they would get it. o well. its not that big of a deal anyway.
today was justis's bday. he just turned 12. the whole family went out to dinner with him for chinese, but i stayed here cuz i had some of the most horrible cramps ever. i was miserable but im feelin lots better now.
well, looks like we're gonna have school tomorrow so i should try to go to bed now. i still have to take a shower and its already ten.
toodaloo!