I really have to stop disappearing
Ok ...so it's 4 am ish..I decided to check livejournal..since i have not written anything in months..
This is an update.
After many months of dating K0s , we decided to break it off.
I'm sad about this as he is a great person and dear friend..but it's for the better i'm almost sure of it.
I hate not trusting my feelings..i've begun the old "Did I do the right thing?"
I have the feeling he will cut me off and i will lose his friendship..something that is way more scary to me.
I've been dating again..
sighsss
I've met some nice boys..but none of them have given me that sparkly feeling inside.
Mental issues..
Do I dare say...things have finally come under control:)
Things were pretty bad for a while..
Came very close to spending a vacation at the nearest facility..
But thanks to wonder drugs..
I'm feeling human again
It's the little things I've noticed..
like taking the subway isn't torture anymore
sitting in a movie theater is ok now
eating a meal at a restaurant isn't hell on earth.
I've even started to come out of my shell..calling friends I haven't seen in a while and catching up..
So ..my apologies...to those I havent spoken to in a while..it's been a long road to sanity..
Legal issues
Our court battles have are finally coming to an end..
We have come to a settlement..with the douchbags that i called family
Grandma has the money she deserves now..and douchbag number one has his precious house.
35,000 dollars later..
Miku
Miku is awesome !!
I had his 5th birthday party at my house..
some of his canine buddies came ..
we had a doggy cake and a human cake ..hehe
balloons..dog toys..and party favors!!
love him!!
Shawn
Again dare I say ...things have been ok..
minus the K0s break up..things are going well
I've been looking into trying to open up a dog boutique
I have no idea how to run a business..or start one up..
but hey ..why not:)
Still trying to escape the grip of Helen Keller ..
I changed positions..thinking it would help ..and it has to a certain degree..
but i think i would be much happier having my own business.
I've been spending some of my Sat.'s helping out on a project for burningman..and i'm thinking about going this year ..if I can find someone to fly out with me.
We are doing a replica of astor place( the cube and all)..a brooklyn stoop..and a tea house.
I will post pics when it's finished.
I'm looking to move again..this time it's for a place of my own.
I'm looking to buy a condo or co-op..
Maybe in Brooklyn..not sure..
as long as the area is nice.
I've also been looking in Forest Hills, Rego Park and out here on the Island.
I have just enough for a down payment..
I have loads of research to do on the subject though.
I'll update more later..off to SleepZZzzzZz
as i do have to wake up at the crack ass dawn of the morning..
nitenite everyone
This is an update.
After many months of dating K0s , we decided to break it off.
I'm sad about this as he is a great person and dear friend..but it's for the better i'm almost sure of it.
I hate not trusting my feelings..i've begun the old "Did I do the right thing?"
I have the feeling he will cut me off and i will lose his friendship..something that is way more scary to me.
I've been dating again..
sighsss
I've met some nice boys..but none of them have given me that sparkly feeling inside.
Mental issues..
Do I dare say...things have finally come under control:)
Things were pretty bad for a while..
Came very close to spending a vacation at the nearest facility..
But thanks to wonder drugs..
I'm feeling human again
It's the little things I've noticed..
like taking the subway isn't torture anymore
sitting in a movie theater is ok now
eating a meal at a restaurant isn't hell on earth.
I've even started to come out of my shell..calling friends I haven't seen in a while and catching up..
So ..my apologies...to those I havent spoken to in a while..it's been a long road to sanity..
Legal issues
Our court battles have are finally coming to an end..
We have come to a settlement..with the douchbags that i called family
Grandma has the money she deserves now..and douchbag number one has his precious house.
35,000 dollars later..
Miku
Miku is awesome !!
I had his 5th birthday party at my house..
some of his canine buddies came ..
we had a doggy cake and a human cake ..hehe
balloons..dog toys..and party favors!!
love him!!
Shawn
Again dare I say ...things have been ok..
minus the K0s break up..things are going well
I've been looking into trying to open up a dog boutique
I have no idea how to run a business..or start one up..
but hey ..why not:)
Still trying to escape the grip of Helen Keller ..
I changed positions..thinking it would help ..and it has to a certain degree..
but i think i would be much happier having my own business.
I've been spending some of my Sat.'s helping out on a project for burningman..and i'm thinking about going this year ..if I can find someone to fly out with me.
We are doing a replica of astor place( the cube and all)..a brooklyn stoop..and a tea house.
I will post pics when it's finished.
I'm looking to move again..this time it's for a place of my own.
I'm looking to buy a condo or co-op..
Maybe in Brooklyn..not sure..
as long as the area is nice.
I've also been looking in Forest Hills, Rego Park and out here on the Island.
I have just enough for a down payment..
I have loads of research to do on the subject though.
I'll update more later..off to SleepZZzzzZz
as i do have to wake up at the crack ass dawn of the morning..
nitenite everyone