Alas stagnancy
I wish everything was exciting again, I wish routines didn't always become so unpleasant. I always want to be learning and doing new things. I want to have a solid plan, and i want some things to be certain.. but you do need excitement. i just wish i could find something that interested me or at least paid me well so i could do things that i want. i'm sick of sitting around and getting drunk. i have good people in my life, i just want something new to happen. I'm pretty sure that's why I love[d] smoking dope so much all the time, no matter what you were doing it was exciting and if nothing else different. I never seem to get bored with the people in my life, just myself. I wish life just wasn't meant to be so routine. like i said i feel like i just hit that invisible wall and don't know what the fuck to do. i have plans but they all require money i dont have atm. baghldfkgj. i think i'm just worried about other people getting bored with me. some more than others.