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I dont even know where to start. Was off my meds for almost a month. Been back on them for about 2 weeks now. The urges are bad. I want to hurt myself, very very often. I cant control the tears. I feel constantly overwhelmed. The other day i honestly was driving lambert rd home and wondered how bad it would hurt if i just went through the gaurdrail into the ravine. Like, how much speed would it take to get thru the gaurdrail, what would it feel like. I know it isnt healthy. I dont have anhwhere to go for help. No one gives a shit anymore. I feel so incredibly alone.