AHHHH
this just SUCKS. Friday was the dance. which ive been waiting for all fucking week because travis was gonna be there and usually we dance a lot together and hang out and stuff. and then every time we walked by eachothers lockers this week we would stop and talk for like an hour, even though i was late for class like 15 times. so this led me to believe that MAYBE i had a veeerrrrry slim chance..so it was all good. Then Holly and Dana were supposed to sleepover and like..redo adriennes room lol, but hol called me and said she couldnt. but then before she hung up,she said that on the bus she heard travis say to mike or somebody that they were gonna go to the dance drunk ? so im like whatever. they always say stupid stuff. so then it was just dana. dance started at 7:30...dana was there by 6:30...then cait came at 6:40 ish...so they got dressed..and i umm...was already dressed. So we left, and uhh were..at the dance. say hi to people...thennn i see travis. he walks towards me, gives me a hug and said...something i forget what it was and hes all like "hha im drunk, smell it?" and then he blew in my face and i was like..eww. so at that time it was kind of like he only had a sip or two...and he definitely had vodka in his pocket. so i was like yea..lovely. but it was ok because he wasnt drunk at all. Then the stupid slow song came on..and me and travis danced...and dana..had no one to dance with...so she runs up to sean and starts dancing with him. ahhhhhhhh that got me sooooo pissed off because its SEAN and im like AHHHHH again! then she tried talking to me. wtf. maybe im just a selfish bitch, i dont know but yeah it made me mad. then there were ALL these girls...going up to travis because they knew he had vodka in his fucking pocket. and travis just totally led me on because he doesnt like me and he just decided to pretend like he cared, i dont know. so then he asked me to dance again..and by this time he was SOOOOOOOO DRUNK that he couldnt even stand up straight. so the the ONLY reason i said yes was because i was hoping if i danced with him i could hold him up or something, i dont know? and then nora came up to us, as im trying to like...keep him awake....and she starts crying and trying to talk to travis because her "uncle is in the middle of the ocean right now" so then i start crying and the only thing he says is that ONE line to the otown song, he was way to drunk to notice that me and nora were both standing there crying he just kept singing that one line. and ya know that really sucks more because now i cant listen to my otown cd anymore. hehehe. but it sucks anyway because it just was. so then i went up to JON that moron and asked if trav was ok or something like that...and he like FLIPPED out on me, he was like "WHY DO U CARE? its no big deal, hes not gonna go and drive or anything..! just get over it blablablabla" so then nora cried some more because she heard that and got upset because of the ocean thing. and then i cried or something some more and then dana came over like a good girl. :) lol. so. it sucked.