115- Unreality
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Aliens again? ........... This city is seriously messing with my already tenuous grasp on reality.
I guess I might as well ask, then, what could it hurt except for the relevant factions to come kidnap me and throw me in a sack and chuck me to the bottom of a river or something, but just to double-check, there's no such thing as stuff like ice hags, MIB, government competence, or political neutrality, right?
But seriously, how the hell am I supposed to maintain a distinct line between what's real and what isn't in a place where EVERYTHING'S REAL!? WHY THE HELL DO I EVEN NEED AN OVERACTIVE IMAGINATION IF THE WORLD AROUND ME'S ACTING IT OUT FOR ME!? I STILL don't know if this is all just some kooky drug trip, for crying out loud! It's happened before! Ha-chan snuck her meds into my breakfast, I just know it! I'd neglected to think about it up until now because it was such an unpleasant subject, but now I can't get it out of my head! Do I go home, do I stay here? Do I trust whatever the hell those things are!? It might not be real, but then it might, and how the hell would I know that?!
.......... But if I were dreaming, they'd already have put the statues of me and my Lord up by now...... And if it were a nightmare, El-chan would be here or at least have a bigger statue than mine. Or even Menchi's for that matter. And I've been stuck here a few months, right? But the time has flown by now that I think about it..... But then again....... I........
I forgot what my point was.
IT DOESN"T MATTER THOUGH! AS LONG AS MY LORD REMAINS HERE I SHALL NOT WAVER FROM THIS PLACE NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE AND UNLIKABLE IT IS!
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So what's going on over there again? I can't see it all too well from over here.
Aliens again? ........... This city is seriously messing with my already tenuous grasp on reality.
I guess I might as well ask, then, what could it hurt except for the relevant factions to come kidnap me and throw me in a sack and chuck me to the bottom of a river or something, but just to double-check, there's no such thing as stuff like ice hags, MIB, government competence, or political neutrality, right?
But seriously, how the hell am I supposed to maintain a distinct line between what's real and what isn't in a place where EVERYTHING'S REAL!? WHY THE HELL DO I EVEN NEED AN OVERACTIVE IMAGINATION IF THE WORLD AROUND ME'S ACTING IT OUT FOR ME!? I STILL don't know if this is all just some kooky drug trip, for crying out loud! It's happened before! Ha-chan snuck her meds into my breakfast, I just know it! I'd neglected to think about it up until now because it was such an unpleasant subject, but now I can't get it out of my head! Do I go home, do I stay here? Do I trust whatever the hell those things are!? It might not be real, but then it might, and how the hell would I know that?!
.......... But if I were dreaming, they'd already have put the statues of me and my Lord up by now...... And if it were a nightmare, El-chan would be here or at least have a bigger statue than mine. Or even Menchi's for that matter. And I've been stuck here a few months, right? But the time has flown by now that I think about it..... But then again....... I........
I forgot what my point was.
IT DOESN"T MATTER THOUGH! AS LONG AS MY LORD REMAINS HERE I SHALL NOT WAVER FROM THIS PLACE NO MATTER HOW HORRIBLE AND UNLIKABLE IT IS!
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So what's going on over there again? I can't see it all too well from over here.