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Started talking with an old friend on facebook a couple of weeks ago and I'm having mixed emotions about the whole thing. The old friend also happens to be the ex. It's been long enough that we can be friends again over long distance, I certainly do not want to get back together with him. So I guess it turns out that he married the girl he got pregnant, and are expecting a second child now. My mixed emotions is about me feeling left behind in life again. I finally have a boyfriend again after 10 years of putting up with his bullshit, 2 years after I told him no more. The fact that he's married her and having a second child is upsetting me because I'm no where near that phase in life, I've been living like I'm 20 something for way too long and I feel that I should be moving on, but I'm not. I love B very much and very happy he's in my life. But he's made a couple of comments that it won't be for at least 5 years before we have kids, that puts me at the 40 age range, and I don't want that. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to talk with him.