yeah i got lazy
for the longest time i have not been into livejournal. anyway, here i am in placerville. things are the same here. i mean there's always more development, but the people are all the same. stuck up nor cal rich kids who have nothing better to do but race around town trying to look cool, i really wanna tell them to just get over themselves and that they're not that good looking. anyway, maybe that's mean. everyone up here is just such a snob and i'm over it. sheesh. my internship with the museum starts tomorrow so that's kind of exciting. my schedule and what i'll be working on will all be decided then. i am supposed to stay, or said i would stay from 9-4, which is as long as my supervisor stays, so hopefully it isn't boring and is exciting. dylan's sister got back from Ireland today, and i can't even imagine how good it must feel for her to be home, i get homesick really easily but i think after 9 months being away it would still be nice to be home. he's also leaving for his trip on the rogue with his family tomorrow, which is sad for me, because i won't get to talk to him for... let's count... 7 days, and i haven't even fully gotten used to not seeing him every day, let alone not talking to him every day. i always get frustrated with how spoilt this dog is up here. despite the fact that i don't even really like the dog (it's an anxious senile corgie if you can imagine that), it is like the center of my grandparents universe! which i could understand if they didn't have other friends and family, but seeing as they do... well, it kinda freaks me out and i just can't understand it. so the dog does not generally wake up before 2 in the afternoon, but until then there my grandparents are, trying to coax her out of bed. yesterday, when my grandparets decided to buy a minivan (that will have to be for another rant), my grandma actually called to talk to the dog! but since the dog couldn't answer the phone, she left the dog a message, it was all pretty perverse to me. then, she decides to take the dog out to dinner with us! even though the dog will just sit in the hot car the whole time, sounds like fun to me. and they always feed the dog what they eat! it's embarassing: when we're at restaurants, they inevitably sneak chunks of their food into a paper napkin and put it in their pocket or purse! i don't know... call me crazy, but i love animals and i would never do these things. so the minivan i also don't understand. my grandma had cancer early in life and they hadn't quite perfected that laser treatment yet, so her surrounding regions were affected and as a consequence, she needs to have access to a restroom at least every 40 minutes, which drives my grandpa crazy. so she decides she wants a minivan so they can travel without having to stop and go to the bathroom all the time, they can just have a little like, camping toilet in the back of the van! but i don't think she realizes that they are still going to have to stop, which is still going to piss off my grandpa, because she can't just jump over the seats like a young person could. man. they can never keep a car for more than a few years! it's such a waste of money! plus, they had an rv before, and never went anywhere! and that is the most convenient form of travel, i think, if you need to have a restroom with you, but of course they sold that. so my theory is, that as usual, they won't go to oregon as m grandma is planning, she'll be all excited about their cool new minivan for a few years before she decides that it is inconvenient and not gas efficient and end up buying a car like they had before. *sigh*. and they're so excited because all the seats fold into the floor, and the sliding doors open and close on their own, but in the time it takes for the car to close and open it's own doors, you could already be walking away to wherever you're going and be spared the powerdrill noise. as for the seats, i don't know why their folding abilities are so important outside of the whole traveling bit which also makes no sense, because they would practically need to put a mattress flat in the back to be able to sleep on the floor of the car because they both sleep on heavily padded mattresses, as well as the fact that they don't sleep together because my grandma is always getting up to go to the bathroom and my grandpa snores really loud. i really just don't get it. i tried to explain it to them once, but they just got slightly offended so i left it alone.
did i mention i'm trying to get a part time job? i don't remember... i'm just hoping it works out so i can save or pay off my credit card a little more. i really hope the condo looks better too by the time i go back. i know that it's really easy to just forget about stuff that isn't directly necessary though, so who knows. hoping the rent thing works out too. somehow i am still really stressed from santa cruz. i am getting a wave of like, post traumatic depression and anxiety which isn't cool because it means i am biting my lips all the time and just feeling down. i think once i can wrap things up with chestnut st. once and for all, it will be better, but what do i know? hmm... i also need to get better about exercising, or eating, or both, i feel larger lately, mostly larger compared to last summer and that's no good. i am so addicted to sweets and snacks though it seems impossible. i looked at this detox diet book, but there are always so few of the recipes that sound good to me, i see all these ingredients and i'm like, "whoa, is that a vegetable? what is that, i've never heard of it before." let alone how you'd know how to pick a good whatever it is. i really would prefer just exercising like crazy, like i did in high school and eating whatever i damn well please, along with my centrum women's. i know everyone says that's still bad for your body, but i don't know if i could give up everything bad in my diet, or eat it all in moderation or whatever.... alright, well, this is a long enough catcher upper thing. i hope whoever comes across this and suffered through the whole thing is doing good. oh, i need to find a new book to start, now that's a dilemma...
did i mention i'm trying to get a part time job? i don't remember... i'm just hoping it works out so i can save or pay off my credit card a little more. i really hope the condo looks better too by the time i go back. i know that it's really easy to just forget about stuff that isn't directly necessary though, so who knows. hoping the rent thing works out too. somehow i am still really stressed from santa cruz. i am getting a wave of like, post traumatic depression and anxiety which isn't cool because it means i am biting my lips all the time and just feeling down. i think once i can wrap things up with chestnut st. once and for all, it will be better, but what do i know? hmm... i also need to get better about exercising, or eating, or both, i feel larger lately, mostly larger compared to last summer and that's no good. i am so addicted to sweets and snacks though it seems impossible. i looked at this detox diet book, but there are always so few of the recipes that sound good to me, i see all these ingredients and i'm like, "whoa, is that a vegetable? what is that, i've never heard of it before." let alone how you'd know how to pick a good whatever it is. i really would prefer just exercising like crazy, like i did in high school and eating whatever i damn well please, along with my centrum women's. i know everyone says that's still bad for your body, but i don't know if i could give up everything bad in my diet, or eat it all in moderation or whatever.... alright, well, this is a long enough catcher upper thing. i hope whoever comes across this and suffered through the whole thing is doing good. oh, i need to find a new book to start, now that's a dilemma...