instead of doing school work, i am writing this post..
Life has been flowy and fitting for who I am right now.
My birthday this year was such a strange mish-mash. My birthday party was perfect! It was by far the best party I have ever thrown. Such an interesting mix of people showed up. There were so many meetings of people who would not have met otherwise due to involvement in very different social scenes. The next day, I went down to wreck beach with the fantastic 4 for a magical adventure that was full of beauty and cuddles, as well as conflict and challenges. My actual birthday was quite hellish. I had to wake up at 4am to study for a psych test that day. Even once the test was over, I was in an uncomfortable state because of no sleep, PMS, and too much caffeine. And then D let my birthday plans unravel, and i spent the entire evening crying and ranting like a madwoman. Overall, my entire birthday experience was like my actual life - a crazy collage of agony, ecstasy, and adventure.
Then, last weekend, I went to Victoria to visit Jess and Lee. My visit with Jess afforded me the chance to peak into her life and see what her world looks like. I also enjoyed the chance to give her my undivided attention, which is quite difficult for me to do when she is in vancouver. Time with Lee ended up being more social than I had anticipated, but still lovely and special in its own way.
I have 5 essays due in the next week. So I have a lot to do... but somehow feel calm. Which is bad because the only thing that gets me to stop procrastinating is stress! That's okay... I'll pull it off - I always do.
And pretty much right after this term ends, I will be starting a program in which I'll be studying buddhism in Japan - I'll be gone for most of May. I am so excited!
As far as my inner life, I have been working really hard to identify certain passive-aggressive and otherwise destructive patterns in my thinking in hopes of behaving better... it's difficult!
My birthday this year was such a strange mish-mash. My birthday party was perfect! It was by far the best party I have ever thrown. Such an interesting mix of people showed up. There were so many meetings of people who would not have met otherwise due to involvement in very different social scenes. The next day, I went down to wreck beach with the fantastic 4 for a magical adventure that was full of beauty and cuddles, as well as conflict and challenges. My actual birthday was quite hellish. I had to wake up at 4am to study for a psych test that day. Even once the test was over, I was in an uncomfortable state because of no sleep, PMS, and too much caffeine. And then D let my birthday plans unravel, and i spent the entire evening crying and ranting like a madwoman. Overall, my entire birthday experience was like my actual life - a crazy collage of agony, ecstasy, and adventure.
Then, last weekend, I went to Victoria to visit Jess and Lee. My visit with Jess afforded me the chance to peak into her life and see what her world looks like. I also enjoyed the chance to give her my undivided attention, which is quite difficult for me to do when she is in vancouver. Time with Lee ended up being more social than I had anticipated, but still lovely and special in its own way.
I have 5 essays due in the next week. So I have a lot to do... but somehow feel calm. Which is bad because the only thing that gets me to stop procrastinating is stress! That's okay... I'll pull it off - I always do.
And pretty much right after this term ends, I will be starting a program in which I'll be studying buddhism in Japan - I'll be gone for most of May. I am so excited!
As far as my inner life, I have been working really hard to identify certain passive-aggressive and otherwise destructive patterns in my thinking in hopes of behaving better... it's difficult!