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Grr. He is online right now. I won't even IM for Christ's sake, I'm such a coward! If I can't do that how am I supposed to approach him even if I DO go to their CD release party on the 12th? I won't, I'll just sit there and be stupid. I'm such a retard. The perfect guy that I was sure I would never find again and I've found him and I won't even talk to him. I suck so bad. It's crazy. Fuck that whole fear of rejection/failure thing. It sucks. I suck. Damn.