hmm
well what is there to say. i don't really knwo anymore. everything that went wrong last week straightened itself, except the guy problems. but what else is new? im used to guy problems. at least we're still friends. other than that, last week really changed me. im not gonna go into detail about what happened, but most of you knwo what happened anyways. the people i needed were there for me and thats all that matters. but it made me think alot about my life and whats really important. it forced me to grow up just a little bit more. i realized that everything that i was worrying about, wasn't important at all. i need to be more focused on my life and making sure that im ok by myself and can take care of myself, instead of having other people do it for me. and i also need to have all that figured out before bringing someone else into my life, and since it never works out for me anyways, i figure i've already got a good start. so ya, a little bit weird to think about. i've also realized that i need to keep my defnses up much more than before. i need to stop letting people in so easily, because half the people i meet end up letting me down. and i need to keep the ones that won't let me down, even closer to me because i don't want to lose them. anyone who i want to keep, i will fight for. but ya anyways, weird update i know but i haven't in a while so i figured i should let everyone know whats been going on in my life lately.