slowly but surely....
Slowly but surely Im starting to feel better. All I've done for the past two days is cry. I don't know why this time it was so hard for me to be done with nutcracker! Last year I was completely apathetic, and this year it's, bring on the water works! It didn't help that I really started to get close with Iyun either. He taught me so much in such a little bit of time, gave me encouragement and made me feel beautiful! He was my buddy<3 Mark and Allyson were also such sweet hearts to me. while doing Arabian on stage I could hear them cheering me on when Iyun and I would nail lifts and especially when we nailed the summersault. (spelling?)
I got a picture with Allyson and before we took the picture she was like," I'll only take a picture if you send it to me in a E-mail". but my camera is one of those stupid throw aways, and I told her that, and she was like "it was just an excuse to be able to stay in touch." It was really sweet and it made me want to cry! Mark also encouraged me a lot! He'd say things to me before going out on stage, and it made it a lot easier to do the dance! Even after the show he wispered in my ear and told me to keep rockin on...which Im guessing means keep dancing:) Not all of Iyun and I's performances were successful but Iyun made it really easy because he didn't stress about a thing and that made it easy for me to not worry about how well we'd perform the dance the next time. He made it easy for me to brush off my mistakes and move on! god it sucked seeing him leave, knowing I would never be able to dance with him again! He was an awesome partner! Im all teary eyed:(
And of course how can I not mention my girls!!! I have a blast with all of them and love them all dearly! We have so much fun doing the silliest thing, quoting movies (nacho libre, mary!) tee hee:)
Im scared about college to...it's been such a let down before and going through the whole process again scares me, Auditions, getting in to the actual school, how am I going to pay for it all??? Im such a freak and I worry about everything! All I want to do is dance. It makes me happy!
I knew that posting a journal entry might help...Im feeling a little let down:( and it has helped, Im able to get a little bit of what's been on my mind out! I'll be okay I know I will, it's just to bad that my worrying gets the best of me sometimes!
I got a picture with Allyson and before we took the picture she was like," I'll only take a picture if you send it to me in a E-mail". but my camera is one of those stupid throw aways, and I told her that, and she was like "it was just an excuse to be able to stay in touch." It was really sweet and it made me want to cry! Mark also encouraged me a lot! He'd say things to me before going out on stage, and it made it a lot easier to do the dance! Even after the show he wispered in my ear and told me to keep rockin on...which Im guessing means keep dancing:) Not all of Iyun and I's performances were successful but Iyun made it really easy because he didn't stress about a thing and that made it easy for me to not worry about how well we'd perform the dance the next time. He made it easy for me to brush off my mistakes and move on! god it sucked seeing him leave, knowing I would never be able to dance with him again! He was an awesome partner! Im all teary eyed:(
And of course how can I not mention my girls!!! I have a blast with all of them and love them all dearly! We have so much fun doing the silliest thing, quoting movies (nacho libre, mary!) tee hee:)
Im scared about college to...it's been such a let down before and going through the whole process again scares me, Auditions, getting in to the actual school, how am I going to pay for it all??? Im such a freak and I worry about everything! All I want to do is dance. It makes me happy!
I knew that posting a journal entry might help...Im feeling a little let down:( and it has helped, Im able to get a little bit of what's been on my mind out! I'll be okay I know I will, it's just to bad that my worrying gets the best of me sometimes!