This is who i really am
So lets see where to begin im not even sure when i wrote the last time i don't remember so if any of this is repeated in anyway im sorry. Yesterday was an okay day it started off with me having to work nothing to exciting happend there except i had some dumb bitch in my line that i would have loved to jump over the counter and strangle........ oh well. After work heather picked me up and took me home to get dressed and then we all went to wal-mart so i could try to find something for my mom but i didn't see anything that she'd remotly want/need...so i ended up with getting her just a card but i had plans to take her to lunch so all was good. After that we went to the apt. for alittle bit while brit discussed with her mom about getting us some alcoholic beverages at first it almost looked like her mom didn't want to do it but she ended up doing it me and heather went to go get her and we just got to boxs of smirnoff and vodka(for brits friend jessica) i didn't have any of the vodka well just a sip but nothing more then that cuz that shit really messes with you and i wasn't in to the mood at all to feel like total and utter shit. It was okay not as fun as it was like the first time we drank but still okay next time we said that we should just have it just be me, brit, Heather, And brandon no more... i don't think we are much of the party people like we don't really care for hangingout with numerous people getting drunk.. I dunno but next time it will just be us 4. Oh yeah i fucking called richard and you may not remember him i do believe i talked about him before but we met in january and well talk off and on. Yeah i was so drunk i almost fucking considered having sex with him he even came over at like 3am and i got in the car and i just went off about how i don't think we should because it wouldn't mean anything at all and i would feel so gross the next dayi don't mean that in a mean way although theres no nice way to say it. So he took me back to the apt. i told him i was sorry but i was comfortable with it all. I'm not gunna lie i do want to have sex but not like that not like a slut would. So yeah i got back and i guess jessica wasn't doing good she pueked outside like 3 times finally came inside then passed out in the bathroom blocking the door brit finally got her out and she laid on the couch and was out but kept like waking up and saying something and then zoneing back out. I guess after that we decided she should probaly go home if shes not feeling that good. So we were about to take her home then her dad came and got her. After that we went to moes for a bit this was like i dunno 3:30am im gunna say but i have no clue. By the time we got home me nor brit were that tired.. so we went out in living room allowing brandon and heather to have some allow them to have some alone time but soon after that it just ended up being fight time and it was one of the worst fights i have heard i mean they fight but there usually just disagreements that they get over in a matter of 10 mins. The whole thing was about the computer like brandon is on for like majority of the day and never wants to give up for 10 mins. So this went on for a good hour them going back and forth to the point where brandon actually started crying it was sad like i almost cried to but thats how i am if i hear or see other people crying i want to cry too. He kept saying "we have nothing" "you ruined everything" and he screamed a few times to and im not sure but me and brit think brandon banged his head on the all not sure of that. He kept saying he was going the throw the computer out the window and go outside and step on it. He was still crying and sobing finally heather broke down too and aww he was like "i want to beable to get married and have babies" or something like that it was cute. Yeah they got alittle better and me and brit went to burger king at like 7:30 maybe 8... and heather called and was like where did you guys go and she just told her..where we were and it seemed like things cooled off. After that we went to the apt and brit fell asleep and i went home for mothers day so i could get ready and take my mom out to lunch even though i was like half dying from lack of sleep. We ended going to bob evans it was okay. Then i went to the mall and picked up a cd and thats been it besides me sleeping. Well thats it for now write more when i do something.