Still good, I think
So today we've been together for 10 months. Yea big deal right? lol I've been in several much longer relationships but I am happy/surprised that we have gotten this far. Yesterday he finally said he loved me again, twice actually. I know it's just words but the fact that he seems comfortable saying it is a relief for me.
We talked several times today while I was at work, he called me before I rushed off to class and said "aren't you heading to class soon? were you going to call me before you went?" I was actually so busy rushing around that I almost didn't have time. I called him when I got back, he sounded tired especially because he just got back from the gym. He kept asking what I was up to, I told him I was planning on relaxing and doing some dishes or laundry. He asked me if he should come over, I told him if he wanted to but if he was tired to just stay home. He decided he would come over, even though it is pretty late and he had to be up extra early for work.
About 20 mins later he calls and said he didn't realize the time and that he thought it might be a bit too late to stop by because he also had to run out and grab lunch food for the week. I told him I figured he would have been here by now, and then I tried to rush him off the phone (for fear I would freak out or get moody) saying I was in the middle of doing dishes, which I actually was. He seemed worried I was upset (duh, of course I was, it's me) but I acted like it wasn't a big deal and he told me to call him when I was done.
So I waited a bit longer, called him, we had a fairly long conversation. He apoligized for saying he would come over and then not, he seemed sincere about it and we had a generally good talk. We discused how to get my new tank home from work (he bought me a 125 gallon tank for my skink, it was returned with a leak so it was 90% off for me! and I don't care about the leak, Im not putting water in it) and it's 6 ft long and thankfully he's got a truck so it shouldn't be a problem.
Anyways Im trying to tell myself that him not coming over has nothing to do with me or us or our relationship and that it just so happen to be timing and that we are both busy/tired and that it's just life. Hard for me to actually feel okay about it, but I keep telling myself that it's really nothing to worry about.
I think moving in really started to sink in with him yesterday and I dont know if that's good or bad. Some things in my place can be a bit of a mess at times because Im alone, (it's pretty big for 1 person, around 1100 square feet, 3 floors) Im busy and have animals. I don't always have time to clean my basement or clean the shit out the backyard etc...
He was looking around my laundry room which is also storage and very un-organized at the moment and I asked him "what are you looking at?" he said "oh just looking around" and I figured he was thinking shit in his head so I said "please dont criticize this room, you know I dont have tons of time to clean" he said "no Im not at all, Im just looking around, if Im going to live here I need to see where everything is".
He also keeps saying if I need help cleaning he doesnt mind helping as he knows a lot of my spare time is spent with him, my animals or trying to catch up on everything else. Im just hoping he's not reconsidering or changing his mind. We'll see, again it's still almost 2 months away, sigh.
We talked several times today while I was at work, he called me before I rushed off to class and said "aren't you heading to class soon? were you going to call me before you went?" I was actually so busy rushing around that I almost didn't have time. I called him when I got back, he sounded tired especially because he just got back from the gym. He kept asking what I was up to, I told him I was planning on relaxing and doing some dishes or laundry. He asked me if he should come over, I told him if he wanted to but if he was tired to just stay home. He decided he would come over, even though it is pretty late and he had to be up extra early for work.
About 20 mins later he calls and said he didn't realize the time and that he thought it might be a bit too late to stop by because he also had to run out and grab lunch food for the week. I told him I figured he would have been here by now, and then I tried to rush him off the phone (for fear I would freak out or get moody) saying I was in the middle of doing dishes, which I actually was. He seemed worried I was upset (duh, of course I was, it's me) but I acted like it wasn't a big deal and he told me to call him when I was done.
So I waited a bit longer, called him, we had a fairly long conversation. He apoligized for saying he would come over and then not, he seemed sincere about it and we had a generally good talk. We discused how to get my new tank home from work (he bought me a 125 gallon tank for my skink, it was returned with a leak so it was 90% off for me! and I don't care about the leak, Im not putting water in it) and it's 6 ft long and thankfully he's got a truck so it shouldn't be a problem.
Anyways Im trying to tell myself that him not coming over has nothing to do with me or us or our relationship and that it just so happen to be timing and that we are both busy/tired and that it's just life. Hard for me to actually feel okay about it, but I keep telling myself that it's really nothing to worry about.
I think moving in really started to sink in with him yesterday and I dont know if that's good or bad. Some things in my place can be a bit of a mess at times because Im alone, (it's pretty big for 1 person, around 1100 square feet, 3 floors) Im busy and have animals. I don't always have time to clean my basement or clean the shit out the backyard etc...
He was looking around my laundry room which is also storage and very un-organized at the moment and I asked him "what are you looking at?" he said "oh just looking around" and I figured he was thinking shit in his head so I said "please dont criticize this room, you know I dont have tons of time to clean" he said "no Im not at all, Im just looking around, if Im going to live here I need to see where everything is".
He also keeps saying if I need help cleaning he doesnt mind helping as he knows a lot of my spare time is spent with him, my animals or trying to catch up on everything else. Im just hoping he's not reconsidering or changing his mind. We'll see, again it's still almost 2 months away, sigh.