Time flies by and I'm going no where.
Hi everyone! My birthday was the 24th, I turned 16 for those who don't know. Woo, fun I'm louds of fun. My birthday pretty much sucked and I ran out on Friday and didn't call my parents so I'm not allowed to go anywhere for a while. Serves me right, they were pretty fair about it. I've been wasting my time thinking about where I was going to get drunk every weekend and I need a restraint from it for a while. It will give me some time to do other things, but I miss it already. I know I woulnd't have gotten drunk anytime after last weekend, but I miss knowing that I'll get to this upcoming weekend. It's kind of weird how it consumed me like that, but all at teh same time it just feels like a phase.
My head is killing me and I've been stressed pretty much everyday. To top it off I haven't had good sleep in two or three weeks and I'm running on about 3 hours of sleep every night. My fault, I know. Today has been like every other day and I'm tired of life being so damn boring. There's nothing going on and I don't know how people can live like this. I just want to get out of the house and do something. I have so much to do around here, but damn I don't want to do that crap I want to be with my friends.
I really need to start on my short story and I think I'm going to write about getting drunk and the things I think about. I'm hoping it will make me feel better, kind of like getting things off my chest. My brain doesn't want to work right now and it's not my time to write anything "creative." I want to write something weird, but I can't think of anything. I'm tired of writing about things that can happen and about things I think about. I want to escape into some fantasy land that I've never been to before. I want to jump into another world, some world people can't touch. I want to write something people can't criticize because they know nothing about it. I want something that can be flawless and pure mistake at the same time. I need time I need a lot of time to sort everything out so I can get there and find it. I just have the time and I don't know where to start.
KIDS WHO TRY TO LOOK LIKE THE LEAD SINGER OF "MISFITS," AND HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT THE BAND, PISS ME OFF! YOU HAVE NO APPRECIATION FOR MUSIC OR THE PEOPLE YOU JUST THINK YOU'RE COOL. REALLY YOU AREN'T DIFFERENT, YOU'RE EXACTLY LIKE ALL THE OTHER WANNA BE KIDS IN THE WORLD.
Love always,
chelsea
My head is killing me and I've been stressed pretty much everyday. To top it off I haven't had good sleep in two or three weeks and I'm running on about 3 hours of sleep every night. My fault, I know. Today has been like every other day and I'm tired of life being so damn boring. There's nothing going on and I don't know how people can live like this. I just want to get out of the house and do something. I have so much to do around here, but damn I don't want to do that crap I want to be with my friends.
I really need to start on my short story and I think I'm going to write about getting drunk and the things I think about. I'm hoping it will make me feel better, kind of like getting things off my chest. My brain doesn't want to work right now and it's not my time to write anything "creative." I want to write something weird, but I can't think of anything. I'm tired of writing about things that can happen and about things I think about. I want to escape into some fantasy land that I've never been to before. I want to jump into another world, some world people can't touch. I want to write something people can't criticize because they know nothing about it. I want something that can be flawless and pure mistake at the same time. I need time I need a lot of time to sort everything out so I can get there and find it. I just have the time and I don't know where to start.
KIDS WHO TRY TO LOOK LIKE THE LEAD SINGER OF "MISFITS," AND HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT THE BAND, PISS ME OFF! YOU HAVE NO APPRECIATION FOR MUSIC OR THE PEOPLE YOU JUST THINK YOU'RE COOL. REALLY YOU AREN'T DIFFERENT, YOU'RE EXACTLY LIKE ALL THE OTHER WANNA BE KIDS IN THE WORLD.
Love always,
chelsea