lost, lonely and vicious
well, i'm still breathing and my heart is still pumping so i guess i'm going to live after all. I can't stop thinking about him, and when i'm not thinking about him i'm usually dreaming about him. Gross. I'll never figure out why he is always on my mind or why he is the first thing i think of when i wake up, it all blows my mind. It's not as bad as it was for the first couple days, i can make it through the morning without calling him now. I just wished he knew how much he meant to me and i wish he would realize what is walking right out of his life, i'd do anything for him and all he wants to do is be the scantless person he is today. and the real funny part about it is...i'm right, putting myself through this bitter-sweet relationship that we would like to call, us. He makes me so angry, vicious. but being with him, i felt like i had a special place, his arms. They were so comforting and now without out them, i'm lost. But i can always get a map, so who really needs him? i don't think i'm going to die of a broken heart, so i must move on. ***BRIAN SHIEMKE SUCKS!!!*** grrr, i just wanna kick his little wanna-be rapper ass. lol, he's like the smart version of josh jones! lol
~*zombiegirl*~
~*zombiegirl*~