i hate 'em

[pinkzombie22]

boys don't do anything except cause trouble. i have this ex named brian and well what can i say, he's a genuine asshole. he is the biggest, selfish and most pathetic person i know and yet i can't help but call him. its like i'm asking to get called a whore for no apparent reason. but today, i haven't spoken to him and it kinda feels good but at the same time not talking to him feels like i am missing something out of my daily routine. awkward. i know i shouldn't even think about him because of what he has done and never ever wanna speak to him but even when he is mean to me all i think about is how he WAS so good to me in the beginning and how good it made me feel in the inside. things have changed. i know i can do better but it just breaks my heart to see him be so rude to me and then watch him talk to his friends as if they were god. blows my mind. then, when i do actually start to snap in reality he pulls his "you don't know how much you mean to me" shit. and of course, i believe it. but hey, whats new. i hate him. he is a bad person. he hurt me and he hurt my dad. thats it. no one in this world is going to talk to my dad the way he spoke to him and think that everything will be okay in the end. i hurt my dad when i talk to brian, and i don't want to hurt my dad...he's everything to me. watching my dad hurt, hurts me so much worse. so i just gotta be tough and pretend that i have no recollection of Brian Shiemke and go on with my life. ugh, its way harder than i have expected.
p.s. to all you girls...BRIAN SHIEMKE is a very bad, broke-ass, piece of crap and if you wanna date him...date at your own risk.